I noticed some strange things about vraylar… after several weeks of taking it, I started experiencing more confidence and also thoughts which are like ‘I am not delusional, not pscyhotic at all’
I don’t know, if it’s like that because it eliminated most of my symptoms, or it changed my thoughts I don’t really believe in conspiracy theories about meds changing thoughts… but it’s literally strange that finally I started believing I truly do understand most of the things which are happening.
Overall, I like the part about being more confident. But, confidence also started to grow because of the fact I am working. I am communicating a lot with people(due to my work specifics) so maybe that’s why I am not so afraid as I was to talk with strangers.
Seems like the exposure to being social at work and having responsibilities has done you some good? Like you might be getting used to normal life.
Also it could be partly that the meds are just working well for you now and your symptoms are under control.
I’d be seeing all this as wins rather than worrying about it too much! Confidence can be a great thing too. Be glad!
Indeed! I am glad my life is somehow… better now. Having my own money, responsibilities is a very good thing.
About meds… yeah, they could be causing me this stability. I still hope after several years trying cutting them. Maybe my brain is becoming stable by itself. (long story, my pscyhosis was mostly drug induced)
Thank you @Ozzyskits I really need to be more thankful for all the things happening.
Be wary of seeing your illness as mostly just a drug induced psychosis thing. I thought that about myself for a long time. But it seems even without using anything for a long time, i still tend to get unwell when i go off meds. Generally im pretty sure if youve been psychotic more than like twice, then you probably have sz or sza or something similar. So dont be too quick to stop meds! But i understand. I hate taking them too. Good luck and keep at it!
I had one very very long psychosis after enormous dose of meth (sadly, given by my brother). Actually the dose was 5-10x times higher than a normal drug addict’s dose.
In fact, I was feeling unwell even before meth, while I was smoking weed. My pdoc believes that drugs was a trigger. And asked me to never smoke weed again.
But getting back to meth, after that dose I went into total 1 year lenght psychosis.
But on right meds I am doing alright. Capable of everything. Just sadly I don’t know how I would cope without meds. (need to mention it’s almost 6 years without psychosis)
One sad moment, once I stopped meds for a week and felt unwell, but during that time I also smoked weed. ((not smoking anymore) It was a coincidence back then, I stopped meds and thought ‘well, I can live now the way I lived before illness’ and smoked several times again.
Till this day I am not sure whether I felt unwell because I stopped med, stopped meds too fast, or because of weed. Or combination of it. (because i also stopped meds like… in 3 days, without tappering)
What do you mean you don’t believe in conspiracy theories about meds changing your thoughts? Your thoughts don’t exist in a vacuum they are informed by all sorts of things meds do influence: your moods, hallucinations, inhibitions, aversions, cravings, your internal reward systems, your drive, your focus and so on. It sounds like a conspiracy theory to me thinking that you can change all that, and more, while keeping your thoughts untouched. Isn’t the goal of medication for the most part to help with delusions? How could they possibly have an effect on our delusions and not change our thoughts at the same time?
Thats terrible about your brother doing that. Sorry that happened to you. A year of full on psychosis is a long time. Ive used lots of different substances, but weed is my kryptonite. I get so anxious and paranoid every time i smoke it. Cant control my mind at all while on it. Never doing the stuff again haha. I dont mind longer posts or comments your good .
Yeah meth can cause lasting psychosis from what I’ve heard I personally know one guy who got diagnosed with schizophrenia after doing meth and I’ve heard of a girl with schizophrenia get diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and it turned out the bipolar symptoms were cocaine induced she still had schizophrenia tho
What your experiencing grandiose symptoms which skews high dopamine. This is symptomatic or people who take dopaminergic drugs i.e cocaine and meth you can see effect people. Amphetamines can cause psychosis because the increase dopmaine they also sensitise dopamine receptors. What was once exogenously triggered then become organic by disrupting biological systems and epigenetics. This now distinct set of grandiose symptoms either indicates that your antipsychotic dose is two low or that vraylar is casuing grandiose symptoms since it can also act as dopamine modulator and increases behaviour like gambling and hypersexuality. It could also be that you have adjusted and build tolerance to the medication and that the dosage of the medication need to change with the demands or life like generalised stress and menstrual cycles
You could be one of those cases where in future you would say that you experienced a breakdown, but, after awhile, you fully recovered and never visited schizophrenia.com after stopping medications
Something similar happened to me. When I was 17, I had a 6 months-to a year episode of mild psychosis and depression. I came out of it, and I lived my life 1.5-2 years free of illness. I was never diagnosed during this period, let alone medicated.
But, then, I was in College and the stress caused by social anxiety, possibly by ADD, added up, and my vulnerable brain blew up over a period of time into a one prolonged psychotic episode. I did a year of Master’s at Columbia University-- and I was still undiagnosed until then-- but then I couldn’t carry on, as voices overwhelmed me.
To be honest, ever since I got the voices, and my brain suffered cognitively, I cannot even think about taking the stress of going to a university (especially since the ADD symptoms still remain untreated).
I don’t really believe in conspiracy theories about meds changing thoughts… but it’s literally strange that finally I started believing I truly do understand most of the things which are happening.
Having my own money, responsibilities is a very good thing.
And asked me to never smoke weed again.