While I have controlled a little, voices and hallucinations gets me in trouble in class, because nobody knows what I have and because I find usually expounding on issues that have nothing to do with the class, or whispering, or unable to respond to the teacher because I can not concentrate in class. is it normal to us? I’m schizoaffective bipolar type.I’m too worried about it, and it sucks because I study a lot, but everybody laugh at me, because of this… At this point I want to give up.
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This is a tough one. I came to the conclusion that what helped me in classes was to take notes of everything the teachers said. That helped me to put delusions on the background, instead of on the front row. And it made it easier to answer questions as well.
Maybe it would help to talk to your teachers about your situation, I get that you don’t want your classmates to know, it’s really none of their business, but maybe with your teachers knowing, they would help you in class.
@Minnii Really take notes helps … Teacher already know because last semester my parents went to talk with them well with the boss of my teachers to make sure I do not leave the university without someone. (I was so bad), they still askingme questions but I DO NOT WANT TO FEEL I’M SICK OR HANDICAP and that’s how all of this makes me feel…(deepressed time, sorry for not be to much possitive)
One important step with this illness is figuring out our limitations and push those boudaries a bit further every time. It seems cool that your teachers don’t treat you like you’re sick or handicapped, but you do have limitations. I’m guessing the biggest issue is the anxiety that comes with it, when it happens. The fear of failing and all that. What do you fear, really? Is it being sick? If you have this illness you already are, maybe the best thing is to try and accept it and work with it instead of against it, for now. Once you don’t fear being sick anymore you can work on being better than normal.
Don’t try big, take small steps. If you don’t feel capable of answering a question, don’t be afraid to say “I’m not capable of answering right now”, your teachers will understand and you’ll feel better without the pressure. If needed, write the question down and answer it later on your own.
My mom went back to college a few years ago and she had a classmate with severe social anxiety, she couldn’t answer questions to save her life, with help from the school counsellors she gradually began to open up, at the end of the degree she was giving presentations.
It’s possible to do it, just don’t start wanting it all at once. Figure out your limitations and work from there, baby steps.
I don not want to be sick…I’m afraid of myself …Sorry guys…
How long ago were you diagnosed?
Surely that is tough, I can’t imagine. I’d try to understand it all in a better outlook. Schizophrenia is a very tough illness to deal with, your ability to go to college is great. I really do not know what to say, people are just within themselves the same as you, different difficulties to face or not. I’d try to do the best you can in education, and find what makes you happy socially.
@Minnii like a year an a half…
Alright… It wasn’t that long ago. You’ll need to come to peace with the diagnosis. Do you see a therapist? (Sorry for all the questions)
NO, I don´t,… my parents fired her a few months ago, and they are “looking” for somebody else, but I know they do not. It is painful you know, itis more when my mom says I’m evil…Everybody in this family needs helps … OMG…she do not want to live with me and my dad neither… I’m in a big one now
That is tough, I’m sorry you’re going through all that. You don’t seem evil to me.
All this is the best thing that happenned to me this week. I just want to keep writing… but Ido not know what ot write about.
Why don’t you write a new thread introducing yourself and telling your story? This is a very supportive place, and you might feel better just writting about it.
If you are acting weird in class you might need a higher dose of medication. Which medication are you on and what dose if you don’t mind me asking?
I’m taking quetiapine(300 mg ), clonazepam (1 ml everyday) and aripriprazol (30 mg everyday) (names in spanish)
You’re on high doses already, how is your social functioning, can you still make friends and communicate effectively? If so I think the issue is treatment resistance.
Well, I do not have Friends… And sometimes words and thinking are disorganized… I do not want to be un a hospital. But I nearly to need it