The voices are calling me pond scum again today. Maybe it’s because my avatar is a swan probably on a pond, and they’re hoping to push my buttons. They love doing that. Lordie forbid, I should pick a beautiful swan when I’m really just garbage. Shame on me! They’re also calling me a crappy artist. I bet the voices don’t have a single creative gelatin in their non-corporeal bodies.
Sometimes, I can’t believe what an unfulfilling and disappointing crapfest this life of mine is.
I don’t know if I should keep visiting here. I have no self control. I spend too long posting and ignore other hobbies that are important to me. I’ll have to discuss it again with my therapist…
If I want to close my account, do I have to start the two week process again, or can I just go into the meta area and say I want it closed? I think it’s been about three weeks…instead of two.
My voice is telling me I will never live up to my potential
Please enjoy your life as it is or however it’ll be It’s always been said here were in no competition
Your post have helped me especially when you mention about how I am so criticized by how I’m living my life by my parents and as you would say those people think they could do better if they were me. Stuff like that really helps me except myself and whatever I’m doing with my life
I really don’t have much places to share my life with and this forum really helps me share my life and see others share their lives with others here
I wish you the best and may you have contentment With yourself and your endeavors
I too felt I was spending too much focus on the forum and not enough on my life
I have cut my forum time down to a quarter of the time I used to spend on it now
My voices are too friendly at times. They call me things cursewords etc. when mad. Lately I’ve dealt with external voices. I’m sorry about your voices.
I’ve been through many self help books. I try to be my own best friend. I’ve done the CBT, but when they start in with the insults, I sometimes believe them. It’s like I run out of strength at times and just can’t ignore them. It’s exhausting.
I was using a digital kitchen timer, but realized I don’t want to do anything but come here and interact, a heck of a lot. I have no interest in anything else that used to matter to me…so that’s why I think I’m addicted… If I had a browser timer, I’d just be totally distracted/preoccupied with coming here during the times I’m shut out.
I have cut my forum time down to a quarter of the time I used to spend on it now
I can’t seem to control how much I come here though. It’s like I’d be on the forum all day if people posted enough posts. I don’t want to get into using an app to limit my time, because then I’d preoccupied by when I can return here to chat more and climbing the walls waiting.
@roxanna I hear a mix of stuff too. It’s not all bad, but the bad is much more jarring to hear than compliments.
Yeah when I came back to this forum I was so down I had only one way to go and this forum help me go up And not stay down
It is actually helping me free up some of the things that were on my mind that were even interfering with my hobbies as I was feeling like the only one out of all who lived and all who would ever live that was having these thoughts and feelings that I had. I thought the forum was interfering with my pursuits in life but it was in a way helping me concentrate on them more as it was helping me get things off my chest. It seemed like for days all I look forward to was getting up and going on the forum for the whole day as I saw people sharing so much of their lives on here. I think all in all I would have done the same thing as it has cleared my mind and gotten things off my chest so I can devote way more energy and concentration on my pursuits in life now.
I thought I’d lose interest a bit after the first few weeks, and I could plan out how much time to spend, but I seem obsessed with it. It’s not helping me do my hobbies. It’s become a big distraction. I don’t want to do anything other than “forum.” I’ll talk with my therapist this coming Wednesday, and see what she thinks. I also don’t like the fact that this forum is visible to all. It’s not private to members. And the ads I get are influenced by what I say here.
They’re also calling me a crappy artist. I bet the voices don’t have a single creative gelatin in their non-corporeal bodies. 
I don’t want to get into using an app to limit my time, because then I’d preoccupied by when I can return here to chat more and climbing the walls waiting.