Does anyone else have this? My mean, commanding voice always begs me not to get my injection of Invega Sustenna 234 mg because it hurts him. He is ADAMANT. AP’s are like poison to this voice. I take it anyway, of course.
Also it commands me to take as much caffeine as possible so he can talk easier, vaping hurts him so he says don’t do that, and he commands me to take my Zoloft antidepressant that I discontinued. I used to take Kratom and that hurts him too. It always tells me, “Don’t take your _____. It hurts me.” Or, “TAKE YOUR (antidepressant/caffeine)” and if and when I disobey the voice, it threatens to kill me or my family. I’m not worried about these threats because it’s just a voice and it’s not real and can’t carry that out. It has an opinion about every med or supp I take. Does your voice(s) tell you whether or not to take meds or supps?
These voices are trying to cause us as much harm as possible. They are trying to get us to go off meds so they can torment us, or in your case take all your meds at once so they can try to kill you or make you seriously ill. I know the voices aren’t real people, but dang they sure are diabolical.
@John_Raven That’s good. I show them who is boss as well. My commanding voice tells me that he is the one in the driver’s seat and that he can make me do anything. He says this is HIS body. This is hilariously wrong. I control my body, and I can choose to not follow his commands. This voice is just a backseat driver and I’m the one in the driver’s seat.
I have two friendly voices that actually encouraged me to take my meds when I didn’t want to. I enjoyed talking to them and when they started to fade I wanted them to stay, but they said taking the meds was the best thing for me. I miss them
@Moonwalker that is great, I have one friendly voice but I can’t hear it most of the time due to my meds. When I have breakthrough symptoms, I can mostly only hear the mean, commanding voice (who calls himself Satan). The friendly voices can actually be of some benefit to your self esteem and mental health. It’s still best to have no voices, but friendly voices are better than the mean ones for sure.
I had voices tell me to quit my meds and to take all my meds at once like @Pikasaur. So much of what they told me ultimately led back to me killing myself and/or someone else. I still think about quitting my meds a lot, but obviously I haven’t done it. Now I try and treat the voices as background noise and nothing more. I’ve already given them too much of my life. But I still wonder if it’s true that I was experiencing a supernatural awakening. Right now I’m just going to stick to what I’ve been doing since the end of my last hospitalization.
My pdoc told me not to let any of the voices in, even the nice ones, because it’s easy to lose control of the situation when nice voices turn bad. Please be careful about talking to your nice voices. The may turn mean but still kind of present with kindness.
I also wonder if this is some sort of spiritual awakening process. On the contrary, people with sz have smaller pineal glands and reduced gray matter in their brains so from that it would seem that this is just a brain illness. But my imagination begs that it could be some sort of spiritual cocoon that you come out the other side with increased spiritual senses and emotional pain tolerance. If we can stand this intense emotional stress then what else can stand in our way?
Yeah, it can happen subtly. For example, there was this voice named Ms. Einstein that was nice to me and told me that I was shrowded in God’s protection, stuff like that. However at times, she would say things like “burn yourself, do it for God, God loves you, he wants you to touch the flame in order to prove your love to him.” I, stupidly thinking that this voice had my best interest at heart, followed some of her commands to hurt myself for God. Watch out for things like that, voices gently encouraging you to hurt yourself.
Oh yeah, lately for the last few nights that voice creeps in and says don’t take Zyprexa. I get so happy and take it, I love getting back at that “guy”. Then he stops talking five or ten minutes later because of the Zyprexa. It’s like I finally got the right type of bullets to fight a werewolf with.
And that’s exactly what I do. I pay attention to the good messages and completely ignore the bad messages. Everything works out great because of this strategy.