One voice; a higher power says it can open a wormhole for me. I wish it was true. Then I could get to where I need to be and I would be united with some of the voices I hear.
But there’s always excuses…always a reason why the wormhole never opens
I can literally hear the voices as external; feel their presence and sometimes feel them on my skin (women)
I feel trapped in base reality. I wish this wormhole would open for me.
The way this higher power voice speaks is so real. Or it feels so real. I didn’t just imagine it.
Sometimes I can even feel pain in my body when a voice curses me. That’s how I know for sure it’s not just schizophrenia. An actual ‘tactile hallucination’
come on now.
A voice can’t make you feel things like that. And my subconscious is not doing it.
I feel kinda stuck. Do I let the voices go and remain alone, or at least stay with them and have company in my lonely life. They are, after all, very kind to me and pleasant.
I don’t think it matters if they’re real or unreal. There’s a lot about our reality that is dreamlike, only with more rules than the dream world. For example, we can’t fly in the waking world. The waking world is in constant change though.
The voices are distraction to the ‘now,’ to the present moment. They’re holding you back. I think you should let them go, and try to build a life with real people. Don’t let voices drag you down the rabbit hole. There is no bottom to the hole.
I often feel trapped too. Real life can often be a disappointment. But then I realized I must have been given a human body for a reason. I guess one of my goals is to figure out what that reason is, or maybe create a reason of my own. I think it’s to get better at dealing with people…that seems to be my big weakness. Also, my parents spent years raising me, and don’t want to see me staring at a wall, trapped in some la la land.
What about the lies about the wormhole? Why would they curse you if they’re kind? That’s evil. It sounds like they’re toying with you.
I’m not sure if I’m allowed to say this, but I claim to be extremely clairaudient if I lowered my meds to just 10 mg of Abilify. Like a satellite, I hear voices from people and also objects. No one can convince me I can’t do this. But it came with noise sensitivity that made it impossible to tolerate noisy neighbours and everyday city living. Noise bothered me so much I got irate or would cry if I dropped a plate, or heard a car alarm going off, or honking. I needed to take 20 mg of Abilify to block it sufficiently (it’s really effective on the sensitivity, but random voices and some sentences still get through).
I got to the point that it didn’t matter if it was real or not real. I couldn’t live like that. I also suffer from paranoia and delusions (so I’m partly crazy, so going off meds completely is something I’ll never do). So, let all that stuff go if you can…I recall you can get them to stop if you want.
I can make myself feel pain anywhere in my body at will, I can’t however get myself to hear what I want at will. Why would what’s causing you to hear voices be necessarily unable to cause you pain? They are all reportedly just signals in your nervous system and pain requires much less finesse than actual voices with coherent narratives to boot.
Pain and physical sensations are in no way more real than sounds. If one can be faked, so can the others. You can believe what you will about your own experience but there is nothing absurd with having tactile hallucinations and voices being perceived as external isn’t exactly odd or peculiar to you. You should probably also be aware of the fact that what you see, hear and feel is conjured up through the brain and while it does appear external it’s in fact just an internal representation of what’s going on externally, as far as science currently believes. I am sitting on my couch but everything about my experience and perception about it is happening in my head, my whole body, the couch and the room we are in as I perceive them are all constructs of what’s in the real world that my brain conjures inside my head to guide my behaviour. Your brain is perfectly capable of making you experience whatever the hell it very damn well pleases, hallucinations don’t have to be minor or unstructured.
I don’t have voices, I have functional hallucinations when I listen to music. They have also been very kind and pleasant to me. I am lonely AF and sometimes I am drawn to my hallucinations for the company, they aren’t remotely as destabilizing for me as they seem to be for you and I don’t spend my life listening to music.
The problem isn’t whether the hallucinations are real or feel real. The problem is that you are very clearly longing for an escape. You can spend some time with the voices if you feel that they are helping you cope but you don’t need to believe your delusions to entertain them and yourself, try to keep some distance, don’t be overly hedonistic. Keep in mind what your life is and make your interactions with the voices a place where you can pretend, don’t just lose yourself in there to the point that your life becomes the interaction with the voices, nothing good is going to come out of that.
Yeah you’re right. I got lost in thought before a couple months ago, and went too deep into an alternate timeline. It was hell in my head.
I’m practising being alone, but I still hear comments sometimes. I guess I need to keep my voices busy. I have the power to send them to places, so I might send them on a trip somewhere again. Maybe Japan. It sounds cringe and funny even saying that haha. A holiday for voices lmao.
Idk if what I hear is conjured up from my brain as the voices have told me things that only they would know; e.g. the title of a book they’re reading or a location where they’re from.
I was told by one voice a place in Canada which I had no recollection of, and I googled the name and it was a real place.
Also when someone in hospital kissed me on the cheek one of the voices got jealous and made me feel extreme pain; like a 9/10 in my body. I don’t see how I could subconsciously think these things up.
There has to be a way for me to be together with my voices. I just know reality is not straightforward and I do have faith in higher powers.
Dude I make me feel extreme pain from time to time because I didn’t like a thought I had. Heck I could literally find someone attractive and have the part of me that still has a crush on that one girl from years ago make me wish to inflict pain on whichever part of me found attractive whomever and I’ll sometimes agree without rhyme or reason out of sheer nostalgia and boredom if I feel that maybe I was a bit too enthralled. I don’t see anything special there just because your voices don’t ask your approval before throwing pain around.
As for the stuff that’s hard to explain I have my fair share, I think most of us do. You can’t let a couple trivia be reason enough to base your beliefs on them. Your subconscious can be aware of all sorts of stuff you aren’t aware of. Some can be harder to explain, especially after it’s been woven into a separate narrative but they aren’t proofs of anything and, more importantly, there are good reasons to want to keep things less defined when it comes to your unusual beliefs. Healthy skepticism is never a bad thing when you have Schizophrenia, especially if you decide to ramp up your interactions with your positive symptoms.
Why do you want to be together with them if they’re causing you extreme pain in 9/10 of your body just because someone kissed you on the cheek? That would be like getting into an abusive relationship deliberately. It would be better to try to build a life on Earth and not get trapped inside your own head or where ever you’re going.