I ended up having my doctor change my Clozaril dose and it’s not helping yet. I ended up self harming so badly that I needed stitches. They asked a lot of questions about if the voice told me to do it and I said no but the answer was really yes. I just didn’t want to tell them because I didn’t want to be hospitalized. But now I’m really having a REALLY hard time not ripping my stitches out and doing it deeper because it feels like it’s not deep enough.
Can someone please offer a comforting word or tell me what to do?