Its been a while since I last wrote. I have been on half dose meds for over a month and still seem to be doing fine. I do have the urge to cut sometimes though (and did a few tiny scratches yesterday which I am trying to hide), but with hubby around I can’t really cut because he will find out and I can’t do that to him, not cutting really bad like I crave to. I sometimes miss all the drama of sz, everything feels so dead now and I wonder if I even still have sz. I feel like a hypocrite and liar. I haven’t been in touch with a pdoc since my hospital discharged me from outpatients last month, so I am pretty much drifting. I’m just going to use up all my pills and see how far I can go… Maybe I can come off of meds…
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It’s nice to hear from you @Hadeda, but do you think getting off of your meds is a wise choice?
Haven’t you tried going med free in the past and it’s gotten you into trouble?
I would reconsider, and talk to your pdoc about your concerns.
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@Hadeda I’ve been in your shoes, I used up my meds then quit cold turkey. I ended up almost going to the hospital.i don’t want anything bad to happen to you.
Thanks for an update Saadiqah. Love reading your posts. What do you take now?
I Ended up arrested last time I stopped all meds.
Best psychotherapies for urges to do self-harm:
DBT – http://behavioraltech.org/resources/whatisdbt.cfm
MBSR – http://www.mindfullivingprograms.com/whatMBSR.php
MBCT - http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22340145
MBBT – https://www.newharbinger.com/blog/introduction-mind-body-bridging-i-system
10 StEP – http://pairadocks.blogspot.com/2015/04/the-10-steps-of-emotion-processing.html
Amisulpride 200mg, olanzapine 2,5mg (half my prescribed dose)
Thanks guys for all your support!
I think it would be better to be assisted by psychiatrist and psychologist to be able to wean off meds and do better without them