Oh God I'm sick, I can't go on without my meds

I wrote such a confident post yesterday about going off my meds. Well, it doesn’t seem to work. Not even a week off my meds and I hit a low today and just couldn’t go on. I was in mental agony. I gave into temptation to cut myself with my sharpest kitchen knife - although not too badly, I do regret it. It shook me, so I decided to take 2,5mg olanzapine, and maybe I will add 100mg or 200mg amisulpride soon too. It’s crazy, I’m so stupid. I’m sick.

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Please don’t beat yourself up right now… I’m glad you have access to meds…

I hope you feel better soon. I’m sorry to hear you were suffering.

I am rooting for you… I hope that getting back on the meds will help you get back to level soon.

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Glad you’re OK, don’t worry about the ‘confident post’, I did the exact same thing 6 weeks ago.

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Its ok @Hadeda don’t be so hard on yourself - we all make mistakes.
You will feel better soon, I am sure.

Do not hesitate to call your pdoc if necessary

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As the others said don’t beat yourself up over it. It was just a mistake. Take it easy for a few days till the meds sink in. Be kind to yourself in the meantime.

Echoed from me too.

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I too have learned from hard lessons not to get off my med’s.