I just always feel a bit unsafe. I don’t know where I could feel safe. I think with my boyfriend but my family is trying to make me away from him. I don’t trust my family since I have that capgras symptom which I think in my case isn’t a symptom but a reality. I feel stupid for posting on schizophrenia forums since I really don’t believe I have it but my family believes it. I feel like I manipulated my family into thinking I have mental issues since I know when I was in college I didn’t feel like doing the work so feel like I used this mental issue as a way out. Then later after doing adderall I got severe symptoms but don’t know if that was actually caused by technology when I was a terrorist.
I know most people here wouldn’t know about the technology under terrorism but I have many reasons to believe it is real. And most people here don’t think they’re terrorists.
Why do you want go go back to your bf if he is like the devil as you have said before? I’m sorry you’re having a hard time. I don’t think you’re a terrorist.
I’m also sorry. Sorry that you don’t feel safe. It’s the most basic thing we need as Maslow says in psych 101. And that’s what got me to read your post.
Because I think my safety is compromised sometimes anyway but of course for different reasons.
You definitely have schizophrenia. The things you are afraid of make zero sense to most people. You need to keep seeking treatment and tweaking your medicine until these beliefs go away. If a medicine you’re taking isn’t working, or is giving you side effects, tell the psychiatrist. Refuse to accept anything but improvement. Find someone in your family to fight for you if you can’t fight for yourself. Find another psychiatrist if the one you have is lousy.
You need to find the right dose of the right antipsychotic so these delusions go away. The unsafe feeling should go away with them.
I was a religious studies major so I took a lot of religious photos from texts and wore clothing that looked religious now looking back at old photos. I feel like I definitely looked like a terrorist.
Good ol Maslow. I find the hierarchy of needs very interesting. My personality is peak or transcendent. That means I skip the basics and go straight to the highest rung. Atleast that’s what some psychologists call it. Do you believe people are naturally born with “peak” personalities?
I’m almost positive you’re good. I wouldn’t worry about it too much. A guy in community college either dressed up as Jesus or a Greek philosopher. I couldn’t put my finger on it. My point is people wear all kinds of different clothes.
But I got more from McLelland’s ‘Need Theory’. and in case you don’t already know it, it says people are driven for 3 things: power, achievement, and affiliation.
Personally I’m living my life nowadays for affiliation but I find I can only talk about me, or even how I think.
Now looking back; I’m looking over my shoulder. : /
I think the beautiful thing about schizophrenia is that we learn to relinquish the traditional needs. A normie wants power, achievement and affiliation. Once we become sz all those expectations and desires dissipate. We are essentially living as enlightened beings. It’s a quiet and peaceful life for sure. Although enlightenment ebbs and flows. It’s not just a set state of being. In other words, it’s always gotta be worked towards. Those who seek shall find as somebody pretty famous once said.
As somebody who -at least I think - has a self actualized personality I was never driven by power, achievement or affiliation. I’ve definitely never had a desire for power. The other two possibly. I think most people are driven by the need to take care of their family. Where does that fit into the three needs?