I am in the second year of a university three year programme. I have just failed a module which means I have to retake the module during a makeup period or take it again in the next academic year.
I am also currently very certain I will be offered a sales job (retail brand promotions) either two day offer or a five day offer. The income would work out to be 18k for the second role, the hours for both are long.
I no longer have confidence I can continue pursuing education. I feel the intellectual barriers created since I developed psychosis is holding me back from reaching the level of analytical mind required to demonstrate ability.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I wanted to specialise with economics and start consulting work in order to fund an import/export company.
Now I am completely incapable of getting this degree though. Much less any more further studies
Part of me says, you have schizophrenia and there is not point trying anymore. It says that you will only relapse at some point , regardless of where the pressure comes from.
I DO NOT want to be held by this diagnosis though. I was a bright young person. I still show fragments of capability in terms of thinking ability and functioning in problem solving.
My social skills lack. But that’s not because of not inability. It is only because I don’t have enough friendships to cultivate good working social skills to use in employment
I don’t know what to do anymore. The crossroad is to give up my plan of financial services and settle for retail sales and marketing. Forgetting I am liable to psychotic breaks. What can I really do?
Universities do not consider schizophrenia as a reason to not pass assignments and exams. They expect you either pass or fail depending on effort and that leaves me to be treated by others as a failure who keeps trying but only fails.
I regularly dose on modafinil and caffeine to function and it works for me, I don’t see myself progressing pay brackets if I take the sales role though and that is depressing me.
I’ve been in your shoes where I was failing courses in university; however, I did not have an alternative such as a job as a backup plan. I would seriously consider taking the sales job since in my similar situation as yours, I know I cannot further my education because of my schizophrenia, study habits and age to retain information.
i think you should do what lies in your capabilities… if you can do a job then you should go for it… but you also not worth less if you can’t cause of your sickness and live of disability but i think you should try if you can.
I tried a few sales jobs. I never tried to sell anything that wasn’t a worthy product. A good, top of the line set of encyclopedias can make a valuable contribution to your child’s education, particularly in the hands of a child who is bright and inquisitive … Seriously, there are a few sales outfits out there that are selling crap, but mostly they sell worthy products. The emergency roadside assistance I tried to sell cost a little more than their competitors, but they offered more services. It is a pretty pushy way of doing business, though.
The only sales job I really succeeded at was selling newspaper subscriptions over the phone. Everyone likes those. They donated a dollar from every sale to a battered women’s shelter. My schizophrenia got in the way of me making good sales at other jobs. But if I could get my hands on either a set of Collier’s encyclopedias or a set of Britannica I would get one for my own personal enjoyment. Right now the problem is that I don’t have a stable place to live. It’s hard to drag a set of encyclopedias around with you.
I’d encourage you to stay in school and take another whack at it. I’ve done sales before, and if you ain’t selling, you ain’t eating. Sales sucks. Some people are natural salesmen, but I don’t think I’ve ever met a schizophrenic who would do well at sales. Stay in school, and if you have to repeat classes, so be it. The upside is every time you take it and get a higher grade, that’s your permanent grade.
My friend and his wife just bought this, and he said it blew his mind. Good luck with the sales!!
As for your education, you don’t have to finish on time. Just watch out for cues that you are coming unglued. I think everyone has to do this, but in particular with a mental illness. I’d hate to see you relapse
I guess yeah. I have to watch out for becoming unstable. Another way for me to look at this is that, if I can manuever the stress or organisation needed, I’ll have developed mental habits/circuits that raise resilience mentally.
If I do fail, then that’s fine. I won’t though because I know I can still solve these problems with the right effort