Is this a delusion or just irrational? Or very possible? Or likely? Please help me out. Trigger warning.
How likely is it that our medical staff monitor this site? That they are here with avatars and fake accounts to study us? Or judge? That they read these every day to see it’s us. Do many drs go on this site do you think? There’s nothing to hide for me it’s same stuff they know but I would feel it’s an invasion of privacy when I need a safe space. Daily support like this helps when you are suffering and the people here here is supportive. This could be part of my schizotypal thinking because it can make paranoia. If so call me on it. Otherwise maybe I should leave so I’m not exposing myself. Also I’m on incognito because my phone gets hacked (my husband knows this too) but all this information could be used against me. I hope I am not worrying anyone I just need to ask bc I may leave and I feel comfort here to talk to people.
That’s actually a delusion I have seen around here a few times. You aren’t alone in having these thoughts, but to be honest with you, they are delusion. Paranoia. It sucks I know, these feelings and thoughts, but I believe it’s the illness playing tricks on you.
Wishing you some relief.
Why does it matter?
Might be a delusion…
Pretty near impossible. I assume if they use the internet then they’d have medical/ professional websites that they go to. They honestly have better things to do than visit this site.
Facebook might be different as everyone seems to be on that.
Agreed^^^^^^^^^^^^
Hope all is well
Ok thanks. It does make me feel a bit better. Maybe it is a delusion because I feel them watching every word I type. It feels real though 
I hate this fear. I will take in what you said
I like the word: impossible. I don’t feel it is but won’t argue it. I think they are doing it but I’ve also just given up to it. I’ve had to give up to a lot of my privacy being taken from me. Impossible is a good word. I will say that over and over
That’s the nature of the Illness.
I get delusional paranoia that spirits watch me sometimes. Judge me, are plotting against me.
I hate the fear too. But we can fight it. You’re in a good place to question the thoughts and the fears, that’s one of the first steps in overcoming them.
Next comes faith in ourselves to be courageous to overcome the fears. And trust that it’s just the illness playing tricks.
I’m sorry you’re having to fight that. But know you aren’t alone.
It matters because I hate my privacy being invaded. I need a safe place.
Thank you @Themoonshinemaras
Thanks so much for your words of encouragement
People become obsessed about there delusions You can’t talk people out of delusions
But people can become aware of there delusions and maybe question everything they believe
Maybe CBT…
Meditation might help a bit with positive symptoms…
I notice paranoia ,fear ,and delusions come in a bundle…
Whenever I get paranoia
I feel the worlds out to get me
Nothing anybody saids to me about hyphen can change the feeling of fear and paranoia I have
I can even be aware that I am feeling distrustful
Even the awareness of my distrustful was wont liberate my paranoia…
But it sure as hell can give me the patience to watch it subside…
As my paranoia comes in waves when it comes…
Luckily for me
I use holy basil brahmi cbd
An Ltheanine serene supplement
Magnesium l theronate
Avoid sugar at all cost as that exacerbates my paranoia
I do pretty okay…
It doesn’t get rid of it completely
But it surely does take the edge off…
I just found a place to live in today
So I’m hoping if I can manage my stress
I might be able to manage the paranoia a bit more
Plus I can start working on my gut health now…
I’ve been off medication for about 10 months now after being on them for about 15years
I’m not closed minded about medication
But I’d like to see if I can manage the symptoms naturally…
Im open to a small dose of an antipsychotic if I really find it unpairing the quality of life…
Perhaps the new generational antipsychotics
Supposibly they have a bit less side effects…
But who knows…
Ur alright. I doubt they monitor it even if they do it’s not like we have something to hide
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