I had a very good meeting with my dietician today. We both came to the conclusion that I need to start focusing on being happy where I am at with my weight. She told me that right now in order to recover from my ED I need to stop focusing on losing weight. She even told me it’s okay if I gain weight while trying to recover. She said it’s completely normal to gain a little weight after stopping the binge/purge cycle.
I’m currently 219 lbs which is 25 pounds up from my low weight. I’d like to focus on finding happiness where I am at right now, and not see my self worth as a number on the scale.
I am still down a lot of weight from my heaviest at 296, and I am proud of that. I do not in anyway want to gain all my weight back but I am going to focus on maintaining my weight, maybe even gaining a couple pounds if it means I can recover from my ED.
So that’s it, I am not going to be weighing myself on the scale daily. It’s now going to be a weekly thing and I am trying not to put my self worth into the number on the scale.
