Someonenget these planets out of the microwave!
No but for real went to the er yesterday, everything was fine luckily, but had the most awful trauma nightmares, one was violent and the other one my mom called me a piece of ■■■■, now having trouble not thinking badly about myself. Took the dogs on their morning walk and a neighbor started yelling at someone so i had to rush back inside and blare music since yellijg is a trigger. Trying to stay calm but i feel the panic rising.
Starting getting delusional thoughts and had a brief moment of ideation. Ugh! Trauma ■■■■■■■ sucks! Trying to remember while not excusable my mons behavior also comes from a place of unhealed trauma
I can send hugs if they’re okay and none if they’re not
I am also dealing heavily with trauma crapola and heavy flashbacks this week. It comes out a lot in the middle of the night, so I’ve had bad insomnia.
I was diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder back in 1993. It’s been a long and hard time dealing with this, on top of sza bipolar. Some days I can’t even come downstairs. So i know all about that frantic retreat when triggered.
For me it’s laughter. Every time I hear aomeone laughing, I am positive they’re laughing at me and mocking me. Then it sets off laughing voices. They don’t make meds for DID, so when i take my meds for my sza, theres a lot of gaps there through no fault of my own. I’ve had lots of therapy over the years
Im so sorry you’re going through being triggered too. It’s unspeakably hard.
Whats it like having DID?
It’s exhausting. I get little peace.
I see there are no additional replies, i sincerely hope I didnt derail your thread. That was certainly not my intention, I just wanted to tell you i understand and im sorry.
No youre good. Im sure it is exhausting. I have some identity issues myself and its exhausting i cant imagine having alters
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