Managed to stop my psychotic cycling. Racing thoughts looping over and over again, being fed by voices. I don’t really have much to think about which has always kind of been the problem. The voices have responded pretty well. They won’t go away yet but they are pretty damn quiet and in control, makes me pretty happy. Still got this new voice which is really consistent and creepy. It whispers loudly. Just keeping you updated. If nights are like this from here on out things will be good. Ended up drinking coffee at 8 o’clock but it was only one can. I’ll probably pass out in a couple hours. I’ll be looking for something to read until then.
2 Likes
sounds like progress. good for you bryan. talk to me a bit back and forth. I am up too and want to talk right now.? This is the last night for me to smoke cigarettes because tomorrow I am giving them up. I waited until my disability check came in and thankfully no bills came in for overdrafts so I am stress free now and I want to buy leather craft materials at the end of the month so that is incentive for me to stop before I spend all my money on cigs again. I am soooo tired of being poor. anyways, shout out bryan.
2 Likes
Yeah dude I actually just ran out of tobacco so I’m gonna try and quit as well. This whole time I didn’t realize the power I had to stop these voices from saying horrible ■■■■. If I just take my mind off of it then they do just sort of fall into the background. Wasn’t always that way but that’s how it is now. Good to hear your giving the vice free thing another go. You made it 80 days last year don’t forget that. Smoking kills. Tomorrow’s gonna be hell without some smoke to wake up to, but it should only be tough for a couple of days.
I think the lower amount of caffeine is really helping with the voices and racing thoughts. It’s so easy to just close my eyes and find silence. I actually start thinking visually it takes me to places where I have been and stuff haven’t really used my imagination for about a year.
You there @jukebox?
1 Like
You tell 'em Bryan