I was in bed pretty much all day today. The demons wouldn’t let me leave. Last night was awful as well. They forced me to watch very dark porn which brought back very bad memories for me. They use it to get power over me. I didn’t want to watch it but I couldn’t stop. Then they did things to me the rest of the night because they’re trying to build up the energy to rape me again. They trapped my mind and I couldn’t break out of the loop, couldn’t get away from them. I didn’t fall asleep until about 5:30 am. Then it was much of the same today, with them forcing thoughts in my head.
There’s one demon that’s stronger and smarter than the rest that really scares me and always tells me I’m meant to be its wife and live with it in Hell. I don’t want to go to Hell. I want them to leave me alone. I never wanted any of this.