do the people in depression feel envy or jealousy toward others? it can make me mad, i am tired of this…
This is a personality trait.
Were you ever diagnosed with Borderline by any chance?
Jealous/envious people should use that energy more towards improving themselves instead of resenting those that do work towards getting what they want.
Put some effort into your life, no one owes you anything, so now it’s time to get up and get what you need yourself.
yes, once i was diagnosed as borderline.
@Csummers, why do you get mad? I am fighting those feelings. i live like a dog, not like a human. please be kind you too… you dont have a clue what ive gone through to be in this state. my pdoc said that i live in hell, not on earth… i was just asking about tips. maybe its not really in my control to not be like this either…
Not sure it’s envy exactly but I go out to town everyday where there’s a lot of working professionals, students, and rich tourists. I feel like I am somehow not a member of this community by not working and feel like an imposter just drinking coffee/ hanging out. just wanted to share. Try focusing on making your own life better by doing what you can at home, learning how to to things like cook or rebuild the garden. It is more rewarding I think than being in a relationship.
i see tukey, thanks. so you believe that i can return the tendency? yeah, i know, we are all different but me i have those feelings. not proud of them but i am like this since kid, strange…
distracting my brain to contructive things can help me too? or just distracting myself?
Maybe just do things to make you feel good about yourself. Like…make your life good. Make it at least so other people won’t have to worry about you too much and know you’re alright.
yeah, i should get over this illness one day. Maybe it will happen. i fight just since a year while the last two decades before it i was desperate so its new for me. i was crazy as hell before so it will take time. i cant do big steps anymore, i still make my baby steps.
thanks
Maybe visit a hospital and talk to a four-year-old girl with leukemia.
ok, ill make you hate me here… you know kindness, tbh i am paranoid from kids cause i have the fear to be pedophile… i hide from kids almost… so i fight to chase those thoughts before seeing kids. nice isn’t it? the compassion do i have it? i think that yes.
i dont feel that my life matters so its a problem too.
but you grounded me with this, ok…
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Who am I to judge?
of course you cant judge me. i was abused me too also. but i wanted to share this. my mother says its chocking but i have this fear too, yes…
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Why come on here and ask for advice/help, then you shoot every single person down.
You act like you can’t/ won’t do anything for yourself, and your pretty hostile to a few when they try to help.
Get real.
Why not say you only want soft fuzzy strokes? Be honest with yourself, you haven’t done anything different in 17 years- your own words.
If your goal is to simply vent - then say so, but it gets pretty old you crying for 17 years about being isolated, then you run off everyone who try’s to help.
Your life may be bad, but you don’t make it any better by doing nothing positive.
Don’t turn your hostility my way - your the one who puts it out there.
I have compassion for you.
I don’t view myself as better than you.
We’re all struggling with something.
i was hostile yes but i had a bad evening. its not in my control anymore. i guess there are people like this. they are just bad. or in suffering and because of that, bad…
what did i say so hostile csummers?
i just cant control myself anymore and its not my fault.
yes @kindness, everybody has its struggle, thats for sure :).
This just isn’t a good topic for me, I need to step back and log out, I’ve had enough of this place for tonight.
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I’ve always been envious. It started with not being chosen for the baseball team because I was too small and poor at sports.
I think @Wave is right that it was a personality trait for some of us before we got Dx’d.
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yeah, the most of the people left me too csummers…
me i am just not sure anymore that i have to accept now that somebody judges me and says its my fault… One woman told it once. and its not true csummers!!!
but i dont want to fight too. dont get pissed off please, ill try to calm down too.
thanks for the message twang. i guess you were quite ashamed by this feeling too? or in my case it was like this. it was just a vicious cirle. now i know it. but i didn’t have a clue what was this before wow… i didn’t want to admit it. my personality changed definitely with the illness.
ok, somebody can tell me what did i say wrong now? pfff, i am dumb…