do you envy someone on his life ?
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i envy pretty much everyone, because i suffer from poverty of speech and thought among other negative symptoms. i see people socializing and functioning and it makes me feel like a loser in comparison as i have no friends and am disabled.
for example, i only take 9 credits (2 classes) at my university while other can handle 16-18 credits. even my little brother is in his second year of university and i am only in my first. most students can live independently on campus, work, do extracurricular activities/clubs and enjoy a full life. my brother (18yrs old) is doing this stuff.
i have to live in my parent’s basement and can do none of those things currently.
the most frustrating one is that everyone is more talkative and thoughtful than me. i wish i could just think and speak more but i am at a fraction of my previous capacity. and it never goes away, even when i am going to sleep at night there is no abundance of thoughts.
i have difficulties doing basic tasks in life. before all of this i was so vibrant and full of ideas, all of sudden, boom i was completely incapable of those things. it hurts.
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I don’t envy anyone’s life because I can only be myself. Takes a load off my mind too, even though I am in a sorry state.
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You should be so grateful for the ability that you DO have.
You can study at university.
Regardless of how long it takes you or if you are slower than others you can do this.
It took me two years to get my aged care certificate but I can not work with it because poverty of speech ,paranoia ,symptoms,mute ,angry hysterical men in my body etc
I am so grateful for my ability as I can walk and ride and cook and bake and assist my great man and scratch his back etc and take care of our home and pets somewhat too.
I say thank you almost daily for all I have.
But yes I am not as able as others and do get lonely etc
I am better than I was when I was child and adult hearing voices and moans and gunshots etc
Still I have symptoms but it is better than it was.
I do not envy others but others have been jealous and hateful of me.
Maybe cause they want my great boyfriend to be there’s but it was before then too.
Men and woman have been jealous of me.
I would love to connect and communicate well etc
I can not stand to be around many people.
You are unique I think and should compare yourself with yourself Not with other people.
Naw do as you want and please but I compare myself with myself not others cause I know myself .
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For a long time I was envious of people talking to each other. I discovered that being quiet has it advantages and is sometimes better than talking. When I am quiet I know more of what is going on around me. At work, I can get more done and am a better worker than if I talked and cut up. I can talk but mostly at work I am quiet and people will come up to me. So do not even worry about talking, have you ever heard of silence is golden.
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I envy every person with schizophrenia who has accomplished a higher education and have impressive careers, like doctors and psychologists and writers, etc. I never wanted to be a doctor, but I was stopped in my tracks by sz and never accomplished anything. I just live a simple life, and I’m grateful for that, but I did want more. I never had the drive or ability that very successful people have.
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I don’t envy fame but wealth sometimes.
I don’t envy anyone.
I am a fervent believer in Judaism but I am ignorant about it, I don’t know what Judaism says about envy(it probably does
say something)
due to my schizophrenia I never had the chance to follow my heart and study Judaism and observe all the commandments.
In any case no, I feel no envy,
I just hope that one day I’ll be able to study Judaism and observe its commandments
and if not, well, at least I know where my heart lies.