Ok, i have this. But i am very ashamed by this. Fearfull too probably. But this vicious circle continues since years… i had bad thoughts toward my ill friend who has a life but ive always tried to act nice. I was aggressive only verbally. I never wanted to hurt anyone. But is the envy and the bad thoughts are part from the illness? Am i the only one? And the meds can stop this “bugging” one day for god sake?
Otherwise i feel very confused about life. I dont know what to think, what to like or dislike, how to act… its frustrating. I guess i should continue my meds even though that i am not sure if they help? 
my last try to stp them was catastrophic… i stopped eating without them.
Envy is a part of being human. It’s best kept in check, but it can be useful if it leads you to find constructive role models.
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I feel like my envy has increased since i became more seriously ill. Directed towards my elder sister mostly. She is in med school and has a fiance. I am only 3 years younger and feel i have nothing, am nothing. So i would say it inadvertently can cause envy, yes.
I dont think the meds help with this at all. But i know you should still keep taking them
i think its a normal feeling to compare urself to others… i compare myself to my cousins and aunt who are better than me in looks, career, relationships, independence… etc
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