I have felt a little motivated for like 2 or 3 hours past 2 days. I though wow i feel human. Today I tidy up and go out with a friend who I have turned down for well over a month. I seemed ok. Caught myself rocking a few times when I wasn’t even anxious but found some things enjoyable. I stopped and picked up a small basket of groceries after getting my son. I felt more human like I could do some stuff. Now I’m f’d… 
Worse than I have been in a long time. Can’t handle sounds, agitated, irritated, I can’t be around my family etc. Happens any time I think maybe I’m getting better and I do a little more. Anyone?
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Now I’m not mom or wife, just a sick person. Sorry if I bring anyone down.
Don’t beat yourself up. You got stuck with a disease that is not your fault. It’s alright to enjoy the good times but don’t think that every time you feel good that somehow you are cured or you solved all your problems in one day. Happiness is fleeting for many people, schizophrenic or not. Its hard to force happiness, all we can do is enjoy it while its there knowing we still have problems. You are always a human no matter how you feel.
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I never feel like “hey, I’m ok now!” But I have good days and I’m really proud of myself for those days. Today, for instance, was a really good day. I did laundry, colored my hair, made sweet potato casserole, and spent four hours at my inlaws for Thanksgiving.
I’m home now and I’m “buzzing”. I have total sensory overload. My husband understands and is leaving my alone right now.
This is how it is for me. If/when I do a lot, I have a wall that I hit and need to be alone. Then I have to recover.
You should enjoy and be proud of your good times, and allow yourself to recover after them. It’s all part of it. 
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Yes, I do exactly that. I feel good, and even think about how things might just be alright. Life can be on track. But I always crash. And I eventually cry even though I never used to cry at all.
I guess my point is that I sympathize.
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@77nick77 thank you for the kind words. Good reminders. Just disappointing sometimes. I used to be so act I’ve in my old life. Maybe just enjoy the moments. Ty.
@Hedgehog Thanks! This is exactly how things go for me. Thanks for sharing your experience. I feel less alone in this. Bad moment you know? Like… what the heck has happened to me?
I sometimes have those good days you described and it’s so needed to stabilize afterwards. Solitude and quiet. I’m so unwell right now shaking no reason nothing bad happened today. Just feel over stimulated. . but I am gonna take a minute to absorb the good things you said.
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@SunLion thanks so much. I am thankful I found those forum.
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