Are you scared to go to public places because of thought broadcasting ?
- Yes
- No
- Sometimes
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That went away with the delusions and paranoia like three years in. I’d be acting a lot different if it was 2015, I’d probably be doing a lot of reality checking on the forum. I used to tell the people who checked up on me in solitary in 2015 that I could read minds and I don’t even remember what they said back to me. I tend not to think about it anymore, it’s water under the bridge.
I wish I could tell everybody that it goes away after 3 years. I didn’t do anything special but keep taking my pills, it just got better over time. I know that’s not the case for everybody though 
maybe they can figure out why certain people recover, learn more about the illness.
There are days I get them and days I dont. Still cant figure out why.
How long have you had sz/sza?
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8ish years. 15155
Oh okay. I only ask because a lot of the literature lists 5-10 years as the time for recovery for people who do recover. Maybe your condition can still improve 
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Yeah my thought broadcasting is all gone with medcation.
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What do you mean by improve? 
I take meds, I go to therapy, I socialize. Just because you have your off days, doesnt mean your condition is deteriorating…
Improve as in some of the symptoms become permanently less problematic or disappear entirely. Since I joined in August of last year if you read my posts you can tell I don’t lose my grip on reality at all. Breaking from reality used to be a regular occurence for me during my first few years of the illness.
If I had joined a couple years earlier my posts would have constantly been talking about being watched or followed by famous people and other such stuff.
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I don’t believe in deteriorating schizophrenia. I never have. I search for it on the internet and there isn’t conclusive proof that it’s a degenerative disease.
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Sorry, I didn’t mean it that way.
I just wanted to know who has their off days, because medication, amongst other things, doesn’t completly fix SZ. Sure it “improves” them, but it doesn’t get rid of them.
Oh. No I’m not offended I just thought I might have offended you with something I said… which wasn’t the purpose. Yes everybody has their days I was just trying to offer some hope that it might get better over time.
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I am a thought broadcaster too. My awareness of the problem started 23 years ago. Coworkers started commenting on stuff that I never told them. In begin I thought my phone was taped. In time I started to notice that people knew things I never spoke to anyone. I firmly believe people can know what I think and react to what I think. I took anti-psychotics for more than 20 years and I am off my med for 2 years know. I tried to stop many times but finally I managed to have a considerable long period in which I am stable. In my initial stage I was very stressed to be in public as i could have inconvenient thoughts and I would enter in a loop. The more I thought I should not think of something, the more I would repeat the thought and I would worry about their judgement of me.
As time passed I stopped caring about other peoples’s opinion. Now, the fact that other people may know what I think is something that doesn’t disturb me much, although I feel that some people mock and try to manipulate me.
What really causes me revulsion is that nobody admits that this is happening. The few times I confronted some people (close family) they denied it.
I kind of managed to have been living a life that appears normal on the outside, but I live with this sense of being denied the dignity of knowing the truth about my condition and this is disturbing.
People should know the truth…always…no matter how ugly it is. I feel my family denies me the truth because they are afraid I will not have the mental resilience to handle it.
I know that this sounds unrealistic but I simply cannot shake the belief that it is true. The long list of clues (facts) I collected during my life that points to the conclusion that I am a real thought broadcaster could only be dismissed by very specific and complex combinations of auditory and visual hallucinations, which I find impossible to happen.
I’m pretty sure they’ve found we damage our brain with every episode.
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