Last night they were calling me a stupid whore. Plague was saying “Now listen here you little bitch.” But I ignored them and fell asleep. And then today I was trying to talk to God but they keep interfering. Whenever I try to reach out to God they stick their grubby hands in the way. I can’t stand him I can’t stand THEM. I just want them to LEAVE ME ALONE.
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So the voices are still there even after the meds? I don’t know I guess you would want to keep taking them because they make it so you don’t have to sleep all day. Do they help at least?
The meds are what make me sleep all day!! Geodon sedates me!! I hate these meds!! They don’t help at all!
Lately geodon has been making me nauseous too. I can’t wait to go off.
Oh I thought you were saying that they were helping because there were posts were you were sleeping 6-8 hours.
Everyone on this forum thinks you’re a good person, Anna…
Perhaps when you start to truly believe that too, the voices will subside.
Just trying to help a bit. I’ve never hallucinated or heard voices, but I have the paranoia in Spades.
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The sedation got better over time. But I still have to take a nap for 3 hours every day because of it.
And it’s not even helping anymore with my negative symptoms, I can’t watch long shows anymore again. I bet it’s only a matter of time before the rest goes too.
How long have you been on the med? Sometimes they can take a while before they work. My meds seemed to multiple weeks for me.
just ignore them. love god and dont talk to them.
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2 months. It was working (kind of) and then it stopped.
I don’t believe the things they say to me anymore but they still really scare me. They’re so angry with me all the time now because of reasons I don’t want to talk about. I’d rather this then be in their favor again though. They’re really hounding me tonight, I’m very anxious.
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It’s so hard not to when they’re breathing down my neck screaming insults at me and bringing up things that are really upsetting to me. I know the best thing to do is ignore them but they make it impossible.
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i know. maybe see them as a test. voices always talk but when they are quiet, God is heard. god is this astonishing silence which fills our hearts…
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If you have guilt or regret, perhaps it is all being manifested into these voices.
We all wish we could have a ‘take back’ button in life. Forgive yourself for your past errors. Chalk it up to youthful indiscretion.
I don’t dwell on my past anymore…just try to better myself each day by not repeating the mistakes I’ve made. Embrace tomorrow, and make peace with your yesterdays. We’re all infallibly human after all.
@Anna please work with your pdoc and find the meds that work for you…better luck after your consultation…your suffering is not necessary…you CAN find the med that’s right for you…I am sorry you are down.
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Forgive myself for what? I’m a virgin. A virgin whore. Think of the irony of that.
I can’t help it what the demons did to me. I didn’t ask for it. It’s something that happened that I’m trying to move on from and they won’t let me.
Just as an outsider I’d be telling your doctor all isn’t well and you need some more medication.
Side effects are one thing but not being able to live life because of symptoms isn’t a valid option these days.
Seriously. I’ve been in your world and it isn’t any good. Your a slave to things that aren’t real. It affects your function as a human being.
That is the key thing in treatment. If your suffering then you need medication. Don’t worry about side effects…that will sort itself out and we deal with things because that is the narrative!
Please. You need help. Get in with your psydoc quickly!
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