They want to admit me 😫

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I’m recovering from a long relapse, not acute phase. In the recovery phase.

My psychologist wants me in the ward for extra support for 2-3 weeks and has withdrawn extra support for two weeks to see how I go without her. It’s like a band aid being ripped off.

I haven’t been to hospital in 15 years, I vape, i cook, I don’t want my weird times of taking meds messed with. I couldn’t think of anything worse than sitting in a room without my tv or music or Xbox.

They are not forcing me but I’m in shock about it.

I don’t have to go but both my psych and pdoc think it might help. To me, I just need stability and safety at home while I recover.

I’m super stressed :tired_face::tired_face::tired_face::tired_face:

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If you don’t feel like you need to go then don’t go. Are you feeling stressed due to the feeling under force to get help?

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Sounds more like a punishment than a admittance for medical reasons. Maybe there’s something you aren’t seeing

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What would I not be seeing?

I think my psych is just tired and burnt out and thinks I need extra help

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Feel so stressed. Just like a bomb was dropped on me.

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Maybe your thoughts are coming across jumbled, I know when I have jumbled thoughts I don’t see it and it comes out hectic and for lack of a better word “crazy”

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I don’t think my thoughts are jumbled, well I’m pretty sure. I feel really ok, it’s just been a long year with a slow recovery.

I feel like hospital is for acute situations, not nurses telling me I’m gonna be ok but who knows?

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What are hospitals like these days anyway? Are they restrictive?

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Here in England you just get held there until you’re not a danger to yourself or others

It’s not therapeutic like it used to be

The other patients really stressed me out last time

Ah yes and don’t think you’ll be able to smoke anymore

They had an inside smoking room in the early 2000’s but now it’s banned

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If you think going to the psych hospital would be more of a negative on your mental health than continuing with how you are doing, then you need to tell your care team.

I have never been admitted. I am lucky cause my med schedule is weird too (along with my sleep schedule) and I feel more comfortable if I have my computer to hop onto.

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I so know what you’re talking about. I like my home and my weird routine. I’ve just been suffering a lot with negative feelings. But I’m not actively psychotic.

I will see how determined my Pdoc is when I see him.

You lose so much by going into hospital with the chance you gain something good. I just don’t know what the odds are.

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That sounds terrible @Joker

Here they are less harsh but still not fun

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Are they going to change meds while your in hospital?

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They said maybe do a ‘med review’ because of restlessness. I kind of like my meds though.

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Woken up pretty scared. I guess nobody can force me in to get ‘support’ as I recover though :face_with_raised_eyebrow:

So happy in my bed brewing coffee

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@Pamito ,enjoy your freedom.
I sometimes decide to get routine in my room as it is in hospital …
I know what is bothering you-two professionals said hospital,but as long you can organize your life alone,my opinion is stay at home.

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Thanks @zoa.

It just feels like just as I am making recovery progress they want to put me in there?!? So weird.

I also love my bedroom with my music, books, and tv. It’s my safe space.

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I thought they were for if you have compulsions to hurt yourself or others.

I just got out because of compulsions to hurt myself.

The brake of being in a safe place while switching my meds was nice but im still suffering from my delusions of control the most dont know what to do. Starting clozaril tomorrow fingers crossed.

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Hope you’re feeling better @Corian.

Sounds pretty rough.

Hopefully you’ll feel better sooner rather than later.

I’ve had some Klonopin but still pretty scared. As psych patients it sucks when professionals take a bit of control over your autonomy. Just gotta take one day at a time, today has been awful.

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Sorey today has been awful…for me too honestly ive been robbed of self control from delusions of control…waiting on clozaril to fill

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