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Why is it that I turned to this?
I mean… I was raised good, I was even adventuring around in stuff that I thought were… ok.
But now… I feel like it all must come to an end… Sounds like suicide… But… That’s the way how I feel like it’s the only escape from all of this.

The voices,
The rumors,
The tanting people,
Everyone around.

It feels like they all want it to happen.

I damn my schizophrenia for making me this way! Sorry people… Sorry mom… Sorry dad… Sorry everyone.

I am still trying to fight it… Just to let you guys now.

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sz is hard but it is not the end of the world…that is just rubbish.
sz is f… annoying sometimes, the voices , demons…the paranoia…but you are brave and strong and you can get through this.
remember to call a helpline or go to a hospital if you are feeling suicidal.
it is possible to have a good life with sz.
we just have our good , bad and ugly days…
hope you are feeling better .
know someone cares.
take care

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I hope to pass down my knowledge to others!
What’s what I hope for, suring my knowledge with others…

Suicide is not the answer. Connect to the ppl around you that cares. Mom, dad, siblings, other relatives? Don’t isolate yourself, that will make depression worse. Talk about how you feel. You can do it here, or call a help line if it is acute call ER.

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If you’re reading this, there is at least a small part in you that doesn’t want to die. Listen to it, and please read on.

Suicide is final – once it’s done, there’s no changing your mind. Since you have even the slightest of doubts, you owe it to yourself to stay alive.

You can always kill yourself later, why not wait? Even if you wait just one day, you may find a reason not to kill yourself in the meantime.

If you’re feeling suicidal, you’re probably in more pain than you know how to handle. There are ways to reduce the pain, and ways to learn to deal with pain. You can learn both - either way things will get better.

Just because you’re feeling suicidal doesn’t mean you have to act on that feeling.

Consider this – if you’re trying to escape from the pain you are in and seek relief, suicide is not the answer. You cannot feel relief, or anything else for that matter, if you are dead. You must stay alive in order to feel the relief you seek.

Often when feeling suicidal you feel alone. You are not alone – you found us didn’t you? Turn to your family or friends or a priest or a rabbi – anyone that will listen. If you don’t know whom to turn to http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

By terminating your life right now, you terminate your future. Consider this – we create our own future. You have the power to create whatever future you wish for yourself. But you need to be alive in order to have that future.

If you’re sensitive enough to be in so much pain that you no longer want to live, you’re probably sensitive enough to care about, and want to help others. Maybe you don’t feel like helping anyone else right now, but why not help yourself? And perhaps by not killing yourself and overcoming your difficulties you can later help someone else who is in a similar situation.

Finally, don’t do it because I’m personally asking you not to. Whatever you’re feeling, whatever you’re going through, things can get better – I know because I’ve been there. Maybe I haven’t experienced exactly what you have, but not only have I thought of suicide, I tried it – thankfully I was unsuccessful and I can speak from personal experience when I tell you things can get better.

A lot of pain left from the act. It will affect all who you’ve contacted even this post has affected some of us. 15 feb 2011 a friend took her own life and I’m still struggling with it. Please there are people that care about you and I’m SZ myself I know how hard that is to believe somedays. Meds and therapy helped me a great deal with my illness but it’s taken time. Hang in there it does get better.

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