The world is evil

Unusual Beliefs
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Sometimes i think the world is evil. Like everthing bad that happens to me is done on purpose to punish me. I feel like if i had a past life i must have been realky bad otherwise why would i be forced to suffer ao much. Theres not much i like about the world or anything. Most religions say there is heaven and hell. I think were already here in hell. Were all tge failures destined to a life of pain and torture. I feel like getting through every day is a struggle and that im waiting for the day i drift off for good and get to leave this planet. Sometimes i dont thi k i belong on this planet that i was meabt for some other distant place. Cause how could i be meant for here when i think everything is bad and believe it should be different in many ways. I dont understand how people can just accept there reality and make tge ā€œbestā€ out of it. What is there to make? So i think this to myself and decide i must have been born to change the world and that is why im so didsatisfied cause i have a purpose. So if for whatever reason i feel that i cant accomplish this the world loses the last bit of meaning and hope it had and i await deathm

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Also when i say sometime i mean most of the timeā€¦ cause there are the times where i think there is unlimited possibilities and that i can do everything tho those feelings never lastā€¦ whyā€¦

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i agree i think you have been born to help change this world and no you shouldnt be satisfied with the wrong that you see in this world ā€¦ if only all the other people in this world thought the same it would be a much different place maybe you can inspire them with your actions ?

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well those feelings never last because nothing ever lasts our feelings and thoughts are always in a state of change and this world can be oppressive so your not always going to feel confident .

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This is my goal but it is hard. I have so many negative thoughts going on in my head that i cant control. I feel like what i want to achieve is almost impossible and yet i cant helo but try even tho it kills me inside.

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the right medication could help control those negative thoughts so you can accomplish things you want to do are you on meds now ?

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No im not on any at the moment im waiting for an appoint with my psychiatrist its not till june

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there are ways you can cope until you are able to see the doctor a month is a long time , google ā€˜managing schizophrenia without medicationā€™

here is one article from here on this website about some techniques to manage without meds http://schizophrenia.com/stories/david.html

also look on this website about vitamins and supplements that can help that you can get over the counter if your not on meds yet you dont have to worry about drug interactions but make sure to tell the doctor if you start taking a supplement or vitamins even

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Yes I think there is a lot of evil in the world. I have thought before that the world has gone crazy with evil.

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Thanks for the tips i appreciate it

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I think all of us people with schizophrenia feel the way that you do sometimes or our own version of it. Iā€™ve had paranoid schizophrenia since 1980 when I was 19. Iā€™ve had too many good things happen to me to want to completely give up right now.

Has my life been easy? Not even close. But even with the ups and downs and frustration and the occasional feelings of dispair, I feel like some good things are still going to happen for me. Iā€™ve been through good times and bad times. When youā€™re in the bad times it seems like they will never end and that your life will never change and that you will feel bad forever.

Well speaking from experience, I can tell you that is simply not true in many, many cases. When youā€™re suffering, itā€™s like a black cloud hovering in front of you, obscuring the real beauty of what life has to offer. But just beyond that cloud is a beautiful sunshiny day or a nice walk in the park or having a great conversation with somebody or a baby laughing or a good meal.

Sure, I know that we donā€™t get what we want. We have to compromise and adjust our expectations of life. Iā€™ve been to the bottom many times with this disease and Iā€™ve come back up many times. You canā€™t see the future. Your life may improve. Good luck.

ā€œWhen youā€™re going through hell. keep going.ā€

                            Winston Churchill.
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It can seem like a lot longer when your waiting to die with nothing planned in the mean time.
Donā€™t wait until the end of your life to start living.

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Thank gawd the universe isnā€™tā€¦ at least not necessarily.

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Hereā€™s my answer: