Today has already been a great day. Had a moment where i was watching some tv. Dude was putting a wall together. For some reason it looked like fun. A sign my interest in doing things is coming back. Perhaps I’ve gotten to the point in my recovery that I no longer feel obsessive about getting better. When I was really sick the whole thing occupying my mind was like I need to get better. After finding peace within myself and putting a lot of the psychosis behind me, it’s more like I’m in the mindset where I just need to distract myself.
After two days of hearing voices constantly I’ve found that if I focus on the peace and contentment I have within myself I can let go of them and they float away. It’s actually working they come back periodically but I just don’t let it grab my attention. I subconsciously recognize its there and immediately focus on the peace, keeping myself grounded in my body. It’s working surprisingly well. Maybe I won’t have to hear that ■■■■ for the rest of my life.
I am in a similar space mentally. I have been praying for people, outcomes, and things vigorously. It just feels so good to not have to carry thing around. When God says “call the internet company” I call the internet company.
I don’t freak out from my voices. But they don’t constantly chatter either. That should get better for you. It could get to the point where you don’t have to talk to them unless you want to. Sometimes it is that way for me.
If I can focus on them I can feel my entity’s presence. I just did this and it literally smiled through my face and noded my head that I should post this. It doesn’t upset me that it does that. It only does it when no one is looking, and it is kind of cool. Even if someone were watching they would have no idea what was going on.
Thanks for the responses guys. Yeah I seem to be entering a quiet period, which is nice. Psychologically I feel healthier then I ever have been in my whole life. Its giving me more control over my symptoms. Pretty easy to just tone the voices out, which is what I should have been doing all along. Recovery is possible, stay positive.
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That is exactly the boat I’m in. I must say… I’m a little envious… it took me ages and lots of CBT and therapy to get to the point your at now… I only figured out contentment this past year.
You’ve been working on this on your own… just figuring it out and working out of the haze with your own sheer will power.
Thanks dude. It’s pretty simple once you figure it out, no luck stopping the messages yet so if I spend to much time around people I get all stirred up. Just annoying thoughts get stuck in my head. Takes me a while to unwind, bout 15 to 20 minutes. Im pretty close to figuring this out, the voices are coming and going. Probably got a few bad days left in store, but really it is up and up.
