I know it’s not real, but at the same time I can’t shake the feeling that something is in the walls just itching to get out. I hate nights like this. At least I don’t have any scary voices to go along with it or anything. Fx they don’t start up, either.
I wasn’t planning to take a Klonopin tonight since I took one night before last, but if this doesn’t stop I think I might just say fuck) it and take some anyways.
It’s like there’s something oozing out of the pores in the walls. I can hear creaking, but I’m honestly not sure if it’s real or in my head. There are wooden stairs on the other side of the wall, so it easily could be someone sitting on those stairs. Though, not really likely.
There’s nothing in my walls. There’s nothing in my walls. Nothing is going to come out of the walls. The ooze is not going to turn into a toxic gas and kill is all in our sleep. Right?
I know hun I’m sorry you’re having trouble tonight. Maybe watch some cartoons or something light. Just have something autoplay on Netflix and use it as white noise. Or maybe white noise in general
Well, I’m weak and let it get to me so I took a Klonopin but I’m already back awake. It was weird. I was sleeping soundly but it was like something forced me to wake up. Like, I had this overwhelming urge that I had to wake up and I couldn’t keep my eyes open but eventually I did wake up and that urge was completely gone. It was so weird, but I’m trying really hard not to read too much into it.
Every little noise has me jumping. I’m listening to waterfalls as loud as I can comfortably and still sleep, but it’s like the walls are piercing right through and all I hear is the shifting.
More haldol it is, I suppose. I thought I was doing so well. I’m really disappointed I need more.
I’m sorry you are having such a shitty time. But it sounds like you know what to do. Hope you can fall asleep and start over in the morning. Wish you the best @LED.
Also remember buildings do make noises and creek, I was so scared the first night in my flat by myself that I cried, which is rare for me thanks to olanzapine. But houses do make noises, so please don’t be scared!
