I had this in spades but my Pdoc pooh-poohed the entire notion altogether.
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It doesnāt help when people are dismissive of delusionsā¦ they need to be rationalized away from the perspective of the delusional personā¦ which requires time and patience and the doctor to actually do their job.
but the brush it off and ignore itā¦ that just makes it seem like they are denying something that is true. How would they feel if they believed something that everyone seemed to be āhidingā and no one would even talk it out?
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Sometimes I feel like a fish in a glass bowl that everyone is watching. I think that is something many of us feel to some degree or other.
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That sucks. Hope itās getting better. I had the matrix delusion or something. Also felt like I had a touch of Cotards Syndrome.
My delusions could have been cribbed from the X-Files. Or the X-Files could have been cribbed from ME. Chris Carter owes me royalties, man. Freakinā hell to live through, thatās for sure.
Pixel.
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Back in the 1990s I thought my life was like a Truman Show, however these experiences were not delusions at the time. I remember the time when I came back from Venezuela to Atlanta where I lived. I was married at the time and then I mentioned my former US spouse in the house where we lived that I wanted to go to Guatemala. It might have just taken a minute when some woman called our number and told that her husband had died in Guatemala. I had many other similar experiences. Some people just followed my life. Then after some time I started hearing voices that āI was with the devilā and so on.
I definitely have a select crowd of persons watching or interacting with me & my consciousness. Thatās basically my only delusion. Whether or not my mind is progenerating the experience on its own or I am actually being watched, I donāt know. It doesnāt end the experiences - trying to believe in something else. In fact, it usually causes great emotional disturbance - which feels highly external (as in, not my own emotions).
Iāve just emailed Dr Joel Gold, one of the brother doctors who coined the term āTruman Show Delusionā
I asked him if this syndrome is a form of schizophrenia, and if I am on the correct medicationā¦20mg of Abilify.
Iāll let all of you know if he gets back to me. Iām to be re-assessed at The Royal Mental Hospital here in town in the next few months.