These over 20 years the good people that remain silent have condemned me to live in my mind and be schizophrenic rather than prove anything, set up for 20 years to be suffering is mind because they want me to remain in the dark, telling everyone here, all my family, friends, they have told me to push it in my head and see what breaks, see what sustains, living as a crazy person, who isn’t. They made me this way.
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that’s exactly a description of what sz feels like.
try to enjoy something so the suffering will stop.
at least here we have something in the way of friendship and that’s good.
judy
keep 'em sick. keep 'em in the dark. keep 'em helped this way so we don’t have to. We won’t have to feel guilty.
keep 'em poor. keep 'em misunderstood. keep 'em fighting alone and without anyone who believes 'em.
keep 'em at arms length.
keep 'em alive.
that is the main thing.
keep 'em alive.
ive got a male friend I talk to and i used to be grateful to have a friend, but he brings the topic back to us talking about sex, in detail, just in discussion because he thinks I’m asexual, and wants to make me think about sex the same way he does, all the time. These are my friends.
co workers hate me, feel threatened by me, and those with control issues take advantage of the fact that I’m vulnerable and mind ■■■■ me. This is on the job.
my neighbors leave at the same time I do. They don’t say hello. They hate to see me.
i had such a low heart pulse last night I thought my heart would just stop. Why didn’t it? Can’t I even leave this earth in a peaceful and painless way instead of being a person abused endlessly.
That really sucks, man… I feel bad for ya’. And I can relate although I don’t know if delusion :s its a sucky sit.
thanks. I appreciate all your repsonses to me. it matters. thanks.