People are going back to work tomorrow. The feeling of crossing the milestone that was New Years is fading, creating a void. Gotta sort out what I want to do to fill it. My voices aren’t silent but they’re at a standstill, I’ve nearly conquered all the bs they put me through, nearly immune to the point I automatically don’t think about it. Still got some cognitive chaos around people filled with hallucinations and the like. I wake up every morning wandering how bad it’s gonna be, what kind of coincidences I will encounter. Go to bed every night knowing it’s not real feeling like I’m beating this.
Got nothing to do but drink coffee and smoke dohka. Life’s pretty sweet.
I never want to take drugs again in my life. Though yesterday my mom was telling me she thinks I have add or adhd. But stimulants is what got me into this mess. I do feel like I have some kind of focus disorder it’s still pretty hard for me to stick to one thing unless it’s really satisfying and unfortunately most things fall short.
I love you guys. I’d be lost without these forums to occupy my time. Im starting to get some social aspirations back and I think talking with you all is part of that.
Anyways hope your all doing well in finding peace within this illness. Look forward to chatting. Keep it real guys and gals. Good luck out there.
