These past few months have been sort of hard for me. The wax build-up has been swinging and leaving.
I’ve been feeling like a steam roller is after me… trying to flatten me. I’ve been fighting like anything to keep connected… keep my motivation… keep moving… keep interacting…
At least fake it till I make it. It’s been a lot of work. I’ve been feeling so shut down and lethargic and apathetic. Just a huge cloud of “don’t care” and “nothing to say” has been hovering.
I don’t like that empty flat numb feeling. I LIKE having joy and connection.
The past three day’s I’ve been feeling like I’m coming around to my old self. I’m feeling more talkative again, more willing to reach out again. I have some of my humor back.
It was pointed out… the past three days have been sunny.
Nearly All of November and December here has been fog and rain.
I sure hope it is S.A.D. and not time to med tinker.
The holiday season can be a huge trigger. All this stress just for a few days celebrations. Best news as you know it’s just about all over. Would think SAD has it’s part as your winter would be as bad as our Summers. Most of us walk around like zombies here due to lack of sleep. Just know you’re not alone with your struggles…Hang in there and keep trucking!
I have been shutting down. I start to try and reach out and just end up just hitting a cold wall.
That wall of wax just holds me back. Or I start to write or try to get into a conversation and just loose my thought half way… can’t seem to find the point I was trying make… loosing my way through a sentence.
My sis is fine…
adventure Sunday’s did take a break because I was loosing the energy and motivation to get out of bed. Plus they started to get big. More and more people wanted to come… then it got complicated… then it’s wasn’t so much an adventure as much as a headache.
I certainly hope you feel better soon J - these shorter dark days have been getting to me as well.
i am not feeling really depressed, just lazy and shiftless - eating more lounging about in my pajamas and its 3 pm - things like that. The winter months zap the life out of me
I have winter SAD too but doing better this year. I think better diet helps a lot…still winter can be depressing especially on cold dark and dreary days with overcast and rain or snow. Sunshiny days not so bad at all.
maybe you just need a break until things quite down a bit,
you know i have been on here for about 8 years maybe more and it took me a long time to talk, i think i tried my best but it was minimal, what got me through was the poetry section on the old software, if i couldn’t talk at least i could write something or try and write something about how i felt,
if you are having a hard time thinking about what to say then you could write about that, it is still a problem like any other and i am sure a lot of people will sympathise with you her.
Glad you are getting back on your feet though, hope it continues
