Please don’t delete your post There is an effect that the brain processes by memory That will mix the present time with the pastime and you get a middle time This is known as the helix of schizophrenia Perhaps you’re encountering some of these
I think you have made a great point. Forgive me for thinking out of the box but I’ve never thought of it as our past was actually a present moment we were in at that moment too. Wow that got deep lol.
You are trying to make sense of something that happened in the past. It is with everyone. My pdoc used to say, just assign some name to it and put aside and move on. It is difficult to do that. But I guess it’s a process.