Anyone else have to store up energy and time as a commodity? Example:
Bad day. … every little thing is hard. I don’t do much. Nervous system starts to settle maybe… so I can go to my kids school show which is a must. I think yay me! I’m enjoying this a little. Feel human after… then get in car… life starts and husband asks me to run into the store etc and once again in that overwhelmed ‘everything is hard’ state.
Example 2: bad days, weeks. … ‘negative symptoms’. Frozen. stuck. Do what I must. Husband takes me out on a date around noise and with friends. It’s really hard work I think I’m doing well like I am managing it. Then the next day or at some point I begin to slowly go back to zombie couch bound.
I’m not making sense probably.
Guess saying I have so many limitations, I live within them then I think I’m ok to live bigger (not that big) and bam, I’m hit with the reminder I can’t do that pace…
Sry if not making sense. Minds stuck today and I’m trying hard. 
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Had tea with a friend it was nice a few days ago. I wasn’t in a good place and she came by to listen which is hard. I actually enjoyed some time with her. Then after I was more dibilitated that day… little things felt harder.
Good to feel human for a bit though!
When I was psychotic, I could pull in together for an occasion, but afterwards I would be wiped out for awhile.
Jayster
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What if you were not psychotic? Did it help, give you energy ? I always have this problem. … but worse if acute illness.
My functioning has become rhis way with limits non stop it feels
Well I live on the Atlantic coast. Many times folks have taken me out in boats for a couple or more hours. It exhausts me!
J.
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