It is sad, that back in the day, I had no idea what was coming. The parties, camping, boating, swimming, I was very out going back then. I miss those days and wish I had enough smarts back then to have handled them better.
Now years later I have been alone 99% of the time for 30+ years and I can’t get those years back, sucks
I was weird as a child but I did all the normal things boys do with my friends. We went fishing or hiking, we rode our Schwinn Stingrays all over the place. We rounded up people to play tackle football at the park on weekends. Played with our slingshots or hunted birds with a BB gun (not very proud of that one now).
We did yard work for people in our neighborhood for a little cash so we could go to the pizza parlor and split a pizza three ways and for a quarter we could play Pong, the vey first video game.
Later, as we reached high school, we still had fun but now it was a little less innocent… Now smoking pot and drinking was our fun. We got involved in occasional larceny, vandalized places sometimes. Just good clean fun.
I did a lot of fun things as a kid but a lot of times I was miserable when i was doing it. Those were the good ole days but I’ve had a lot of fun even after I was diagnosed. I got diagnosed when I was 19 and later in my late 20’s I started smoking crack. It could get very serious sometimes but hey, I wernt to parties in the fraternity houses at Standford university. I went to bards and clubs, partied with strangers all day that I had just met.
If I could be 5 or so again yes those were the good days. But now I’m looking towards the future. I must be doing a little better because I’m starting to care about the future again.
I was already psychotic in high school, but I still miss it to an extent. It was pretty awful in most ways, though. I don’t look fondly on much if any of the past. Even the good things are tainted by other really bad things.
I had no “good old days”. My past was speckled with a lot of abuse. First from my biological father and then from my husband. After I left my husband, I abused myself through a lot of depressive and suicidal thinking. And that went on for 17 years until I woke up one day and realized that my husband was a nobody,and my dad apologized to me (finally), for all of his abuse of me.