One thing that causes me anxiety above most other situations is sitting at a dinner table eating a meal with people. Especially family. I can’t handle it. Been that way since I was very young. I feel like an absolute alien amongst other humans. I’m just too different from most people. Sometimes it feels like all I want is to bar everyone out of my life and never speak to them again. But I know that that course of action would seriously impact my mental health negatively.
Anyone hate dinner dynamics and/or want to be alone forever?
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There’s probably something to this… I think some people watch the way another eats. The world has gotten cruel in business and everyone sizes everyone up all the time.
I think it was Jack Nicholson’s character in The Departed where he says he likes to watch another person eat. He was a leader in crime business.
Your family loves you I’ll bet… why oh why is it worse with them over others?
@anon64158233 I guess maybe because their opinion of me matters to me too much?
I knew a girl a long time ago who would cover her mouth with a napkin as she ate. I guess I didn’t understand at the time.
Personally my relationship with food is I get it over with as soon as I can. I’d drink my meals if I could bc drinking for some reason makes me feel “prettier” [Really.]
So at least I know myself on this and one day I can add Carnation Instant Breakfasts to my mix.
Are you clumsy at all though? Do you know how to hold silverware? I missed that day in school… and life experience. I feel your pain, basically. 
I’m the opposite of clumsy. I’m so conscious of every movement and moment that I eat with such an intense precision that I might even shake a little or look around at people from the corner if my eye as I’m simultaneously doing something with the silverware lol. Sounds insane. But at other times I can be so chill and cool. And people can’t even beleive I have a mi.
I rarely sit at the table with others when I eat a meal.
I like my privacy when I eat.
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Thank you for a challenge after I thought my growth had reached a pinacle. I love good questions. Now to answer my views: Have you heard the word, “isolate?” That is when you withdraw completely from people That can be a tendancy. I have been asked by great friends not to isolate. As for your feeling uncomfortable, I am sorry you feel this way. You are suffering because you are an inside person. I don’t know if you are always or will always be and inside person, but I for one love inside people. It is a huge topic. I would say never give up inside and hope you can co-exist with everyone else, including your family. Do you know that people who are inside can be great people?
I won’t eat with other people, esp. family. I think I’m a cannibal.
@Here4You when you say inside person, is that like one who dwells within sort of thing? Like very introverted?
Yes, that is what I meant.
@Here4You thanks that makes me feel a little better about it
I don’t like to eat with a lot of people either. I’m used to eating with just my dad and mum and more people make me uncomfortable.
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