The end of the semester that is! So in other words things are getting pretty chaotic. I’ve got a 10 page paper to write on what I’ve been doing in the lab all semester. Which is…not much…we haven’t even started the actual experiment yet, we’ve just been training the rats to use the machines that we need to use in the experiment…so I have pretty much nothing to write about but somehow have to stretch it over 10 pages…ugh. I wanted to finish it all this weekend and ended up only coming out with 4 pages. I also have a 2 page paper to write for another class and finals are going to come up very quickly. Stressful! Probably not the best time to start a new med! Maybe I should wait until winter break! I can actually afford to do that now that I am finally emerging from this 2 month long depressive episode. God that was awful. Not the worst I’ve had but still bad. I’m glad it’s abating because my psychotic symptoms were starting to flare up and now I feel like they’re calming back down as well.
My therapist said since I am high functioning I could technically choose not to take meds and just try to struggle through all my episodes…but that is very risky to me. I have come very close to attempting to take to my life before and I am worried the day will come when I will not be able to stop myself from that if I just let my illness run wild. So I will take an AD. Anyways wish me luck in finishing this semester! Aghhh.
