The bizarre side of my addiction

There’s a bizarre side to being a crack addict besides selling all your possessions for 1/20 of what they were actually worth. It’s kind of weird trading a $1000 stereo for $50 worth of crack or selling your jacket for a dollar to buy a hit of crack. It got a lot more bizarre though.

I remember when I first started smoking and I had a guy over my apartment and we smoked a couple rocks and then the guy got on his hands and knees with his face close to the carpet and started crawling around picking at the carpet. I asked him what he was doing and he said that he thought we dropped some, I saw a few people do this and I started thinking it was weird but a couple years later I smoked crack with friends in my bedroom and after it was all gone I was crawling on my hands and knees on the carpet picking up little white particles and smoking them hoping they were crack.

I started doing this all the time, And I did a lot of smoking in my car and after I got home after a night out partying I would scour the car floor for any pieces that might have fell off, Occasionally you would find little chips of crack but not usually. I mean most people only see the glamorous side of smoking crack when the reality is it makes you behave very strangely. So don’t even try it unless you want to ruin your life.

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I thought you had to be a real loser of a drunk to steal someone else’s drink in a bar when they weren’t looking until I got low enough to turn into that loser drunk.

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Thank goodness they didn’t legalize it. I am miraculously coming out of addiction to intoxicants. I will only do what is legal and was wanting more options. I tried whatever was legal and liked it. But I became dependent on whatever was legal. To hell with that stuff for making me go through hardship. I learned I like it if it is legal but I severely abused it and lost control. I learned I have a medical condition called addiction and I was denying it. I was going to get into unbelievable trouble with my family. I lost my intelligence but I liked it. Now I am taking to a professional and he is showing me I am denying I have a medical condition and lost my intelligence and won’t admit It. I was glorifying it and was leading myself to completely humiliating myself with my parents. That stuff is not for me I like to be in control of myself. I still am in denial and accept the challenge.

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