I am faithfully on my AP’s but still have delusions come and go. I am not religious, so my “God” is the self-aware universe and eternal life. It was talking to me last night and (like other’s God talks to…) told me I am special. I haven’t logged in here for a while but wanted to read a little bit and post. The ‘conversation’ I had with It was very convincing. I thought about increasing my AP dose, but I am better today. I literally have like back-and-forth conversations with It. It is crazy, I know…
2 Likes
I am just scared to reply. Because not sure what state of mind you are currently at ! Hope you taking your meds and not missed them
1 Like
Thanks:) I am definitely taking my meds on time every day. I have no desire to go back to the miserable hospital or, even worse, have painful crazy delusions that are dangerous. Last night was bizarre, for sure.
2 Likes
I feel ya. I sometimes have religious delusions too. A while back I thought I was the Jewish messiah. Nowadays I’m okay. Religious delusions tend to be common in schizophrenia.
1 Like
One thing that is common in my delusions, is I am the center of attention! Be it the world or the whole universe. and…there is no way out. The universe is nice when it talks to me, though
i have one where my mind is in the universal mind. paranoid delusion.
1 Like
Me too! I feel like everyone is paying attention to me because I think my thoughts are on the internet lol
I understand. The universe is kind of a universal mind. Paranoia is the worst.
1 Like
FWIW I don’t know what your thoughts are. Not unless you type them out on this forum. That has to be tough. I feel for you.
ya my mind is in the universe and it is a mind and some of my thoughts are from the universe, and some are mine
1 Like
When you say the universe, does that include the ppl in it since they are also a part of the universe, or not? 
1 Like
no in mine the universe is some thoughts that are from the cosmos
Oh okay.
Yeh it’s interesting but idk if it’s real.
I have some strange unusual beliefs about cosmological interconnectivity
But it does include the people
but instead of cosmological interconnectivity it may just be a cosmological design of parallel phenomenon in time.
in mine the people are part of reality that can be changed by the universe and gave me flashes of turning them into cannibalistic secret order
Oh right that sounds a bit scary.
1 Like
yep that was a scary delusion i had in hospital last year that the universe would switch me to the hell it was showing me of the cannibalistic order i guess in the other dimension that parallels ours
Maybe that won’t happen. (Trying to be supportive lol) :))
1 Like
its an experience but it doesnt worry me
1 Like
Awesome. That it doesn’t worry you!
1 Like