I know I need my meds but I’ve been sitting here for an hour looking at the time and not taking them. I will yet. I just hate it so much. Hate knowing that the rest of my life I’ll be taking these stupid pills just so I don’t act like a crazy person. I’m so very tired.
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Lots of people have to take meds every day.
People who have organ transplants. People who have low thyroid. People who have arthritis. People who have heart problems.
@FatMama help me please;
I hate my life;
I don’t want to live;
@twinklestars I am sorry but my life sucks very much on or off medication;
It doesn’t help me.
I don’t mind taking 20 medications if they’re effective;
What I take so far doesn’t help me much.
My life is intolerable, this way or the other
@Chess24 I feel ya. It feels intolerable sometimes. I can only hope one day it doesn’t. Are you sz or sza? I sza and honestly sometimes hope for mania
@FatMama I have schizophrenia;
Classical one, with impairment present since early childhood(prodromal sz).
that’s a long time. I’m sorry you are going through this. Tell you what. I’ll hang on if you do. Be compliant with meds and all. We all have some reason to hang on
@FatMama if I could peacefully depart this world, it would be best.
Tell you what. Give it one more week. During that week write down all the important things in your life and then tell me what you want to do about it.
Meanwhile I’m putting off my meds but I realize now I need to. So here I begrudgingly go.
I wish peace upon you @Chess24
You’ve only tried one med.
How’s the therapy going? Have you got your sarcosine or benzoate yet? Fish oil?
@twinklestars my condition is very difficult;
I tried a med and its working;
But my condition remains difficult;
But overall I feel better on olanzapine than off it;
I am ill and today I am physically very weak as well;
It is not usually so;
I have seen some very encouraging signs on olanzapine and not going to quit it;
I may try adjunctive treatment.
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When you are physically ill, everything will seem worse.
Hope you feel better soon.
You probably won’t need 20 meds. But I understand, I would take 20 also if it would give me peace of mind.
I feel like Ending it too. Lately I’ve been looking for relief from benzodiazepines and stimulants. Life feels more tolerable on stimulants but it ‘can’ cause psychosis. Part of me is so surprised I didn’t have the insight to kill my self when I started to realize I was getting sick. It’s all about that moment I realized I was becoming one of “those” people. I barely go out now. I only talk to my parents and I’m only 26. I just can’t see living for the rest of my life feeling like I do (unless I take stimulants). Maybe I should just change meds but to me Suicide takes a lot of initiative- I wish it were as easy as the afterthought of turning off a light switch. I already made a list of people I need to write letters To before I go. I was in a bad place when I made the list- problem is ending it for me makes it harder for others to cope. I wish I had terminal cancer- I’d enjoy the life I had left and the side effects of the invega I’m on feel just like chemo. Whatever… I’m right there with ya
I have that terminal illness wish pretty much all the time only I want to wait til my kids are all adults (another 5 years). Then I know my kids are okay and i can just disappear.
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Maybe you should just change meds.
Can your parents help you find a doctor that believes that you can recovery substantially? Too many of them are satisfied if you’re not actively psychotic, but there are some that will keep trying til something works.
Wow that’s so true. It seems like the bottom line is “are you having hallucinations” and “do u have paranoia?” There’s never anything about negative symptoms or the quality of life one should have. You can walk in with a medicated stare and be drooling in your seat and they call it progress if there’s no active psychosis. Most doctors hate medicating schiziphrenics because they’re harder to rehabilitate and more to manage
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Eh guys all off us suffers a bit but that doesn’t mean that we muss giveup
Too much fun to give up now. Yaaaay
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