Hello friends,
I don’t have anyone to talk to about this, so I’m posting it here. Please forgive me.
I’m trying to manage my heart pain that I had for the past three days. As usual, I’m on this community, replying and talking with you guys- and I realized that I am literally feeling the crawling of spiders. They’re everywhere. They’re on my legs, my feet, my arms… and I hate it so much. They’re crawling right now as I type this.
I feel that someone is causing pain to my body, and I feel threathened and scared. I haven’t felt this way in a long time, and I am very agitated.
Does anyone know how to deal with these tactile hallucinations? I know that I have tactile hallucinations regularly, and today is just unbearable…especially with the heart pain and the physical disabilities I have.
I actually…see them, too. And these spiders seen to “talk”. I don’t see how they can destroy me, according to their words. But I’m in so much fear right now.
I honestly don’t know why this is happening to me. Physical pain is unbearable enough…
Oh yeah, I have heart pain (heart attacks, mainly) and also excruciating bone pain that I can only describe as metastatic cancer and the occasional stroke that can either be pleasant or painful. It makes it impossible to function sometimes, but I find it’s best to just wait it out. I can’t imagine also having the feeling of spiders, though…especially nasty ones with nasty intentions. But without knowing much about it, I know that they will definitely NOT destroy you.
I think you’re right! I’ll just wait it out and see. Right now my heart is throbbing again and it’s really painful.
The spiders are crawling over me again and the voices want me to end my life. It’s so awful, and I wish I would be able to stop seeing them.
Medication is really the only thing because you can tell yourself they’re only hallucinations but the reality is it is still hurting you. My medication stopped my tactiles and I feel free.
I think I should get back on my medications, but my doctor thinks I don’t need them.
I should probably tell him, but I don’t want to disappoint my mom and tell her that my symptoms have returned from remission.
No no no. Please, please tell your doctor so this doesn’t get any worse. If you let this go on, it will likely get to a point where you can’t hide it anyways. It’s better your pdoc and probably your family know now so that they can help you through it before you end up having a mental health crisis.
I will- I have seen myself end up in a mental health crisis before, so I will prevent that by telling them.
I’m just worried about my brother. He doesn’t know that I have schizophrenia. He will break into tears when he hears it.
Okay. I’m determined. I will tell them tomorrow.
Thank you so much @Sardonic!
I’m just trying to type this message to you while thousands of spiders are crawling…I will tell my family when they wake up in the afternoon (it’s 3am here)
Yeah, that really f*cking sucks about feeling the spiders. That’s gotta be awful. I’m sure your family will treat you with compassion and try to help you through this. And you will get through this. It may not seem like it now, but the storm will pass.
edit: Are the tactiles making it difficult to sleep? I just realized what time you said it was. 3 am? You need some sleep if you can get it.
Thank you so much.
As my country have a poor awareness about people with schizophrenia, my parents do not understand…and they think my illness is “shameful” and “should not be talked about”. This is the main reason why my brother isn’t aware that I am schizophrenic.
They do prescribe meds for me, so I think it’s worthwile telling them anyways.
If you are suffering off your medications then you need them. You need to be upfront with your doctor that you are suffering. I’m sure your mom would be more upset to hear that you are suffering than she would to know you had to go back on medication.
But without knowing much about it, I know that they will definitely NOT destroy you.