I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I couldn’t find anywhere else appropriate to place this topic in.
I have suffered from tactile hallucinations now for over a year and they are becoming horrendous. They are mainly sexual and regularly force me into an affliction I would rather not have. I do not hear voices and I do not have visual hallucinations, just tactile ones. I have tried to live with it but it is becoming deeply hurtful to be forced into acts I would never choose to engage in. I have talked to family about it and they didn’t want to know. I also talked to someone outside the family and he wasn’t much help either. Consequently, I am now at the desperate point of taking my own life. I can’t visualise a future beyond that of more suffering, more doctors and more heartache. This tactile stuff is freakish to the extreme: I feel hands on my shoulders and feel someone (or something) embracing me regularly in bed. I could have coped with that, but this sexual stuff is impossible. ‘They’ want me to engage in this ‘affliction’ every day, and if I don’t I receive a pinprick of electrical shock into my back for resisting. As I type, ‘something’ is feeling about ‘downstairs’.
All this is making me feel extremely tired and ill and I have fallen into complete non-functionality. I have lost interest in all the things that used to give me enjoyment, and I feel totally isolated.