You already know what most people think about your situation. Ultimately, it’s you who has to live with your decisions and choices and it doesn’t really matter what people on here think. You do seem to get a lot of negativity about your situation from people here and I doubt anything you say is going to change that.
there isn’t a question
im clarifying and being above board
im not asking judges for their deliberations
im stating my situation
im not asking for forgiveness justifying myself or asking for understanding from anyone but maybe a couple of jury members and if that is too much to ask im actually not even asking for that
I get the vibe that youre running away from responsibility. You got snappy and rude when people expressed they didnt approve of what youre doing, yet posting about it a lot and seemingly wanting to prove youre not a bad person or something. But your behavior is frankly toxic and if i was your husband id run the other way. Sorry to say. It sounds like you have a lot of inner work to do about the way tou relate to others