If we can master ourselves under these conditions we are enlightened. I’m pretty ■■■■■■■ close. My biggest problem that I want to work on now is to not get overly excited when I think something good is going to happen. To be completely chill and zen no matter what comes my way.
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I wish I could predict when I’m going to feel content and have peace of mind.
You’re not there yet? From your posts it sounds like you got peace of mind and contentment.
I’m doing therapy right now. Pretty obvious that SZ continues to find new ways to mess me up over the years. I’m far from enlightened. Definitely can’t view it as a shortcut. More likely it’s the opposite.
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Some spiritual folks say suffering is the quickest way to enlightenment. Im pretty sure they’re right.
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Oh boy. I need to show you around some AA meetings. Just wait until you meet the group Bleeding Deacon.
I guess it depends on the perspective you take to suffering.
I guess I mean I can’t force it. Most of the time contentment and peace of mind is there if I calm down and let it. I live in a very stressful, fast paced area of the country and it’s easy to get caught up in the frantic pace and just lose your cool and get distracted by the rat race.
I’ve been around various recovery for close to three decades. My experience is that people who have experienced trauma are often more broken and less functional until they get help with it. They’re less likely to be enlightened than someone who hasn’t been stressed to the breaking point.
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Insanity probably is. There’s probably a reason for it. In my first life, I tried reaching a false enlightenment. I convinced myself I lived in a computer simulation that had no God or no creator except maybe aliens, which is probably true to some extent. That was a trillion or more loops ago.
I regret trying to reach this false enlightenment, but I cannot undo the past just like Neo taking the Red Pill.
Maybe aliens drove me insane. I don’t know.
I have beliefs that people might want to make simulations too especially evil people.
Most normies and schizophrenics don’t even care or believe in simulation theory. I escaped it before and interacted with people and tried ‘waking people up’, but I think I was punished for eternity and given schizoprenia and stuff in a loop by the aliens or computer programmers or simulators or whatever you want to call them.
I think the simulation is either stuck on repeat or I put it on repeat before I got stuck and trapped here. It’s been running non-stop since 2011 I think at least from my perspective.
In one of my lives, I posted on the internet we lived in the matrix on facebook. I also was a time traveler.
The simulators don’t want the simulated people to wake up and know and realize we live in a computer simulation. It probably causes issues like mental ones like I have.
I read a quote that 1in 5000 or something is an actual source player. I’m thinking that’s a bit low. It’s an interesting thought nonetheless.
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I understand your perspective.
I agree that sz is a chemical process. Whether you sit in front of a tree for 7 years or you find enlightenment it’s about chemical changes in your mind. Saying that. I don’t find anything particularly mystical or magical about the sz process. It’s smoke and mirrors and most people end up just chasing shadows.
It’s a quirk in evolution where a faulty gene mix makes a faulty outcome. It’s not a step towards anything other than a broken process. If it was magical and everyone were shamans or enlightened then we’d be gurus. I’ve yet to meet a schizophrenic guru but I’ve found quite a few who thought they were god.
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If you can master yourself then what are you enlightened to? Your enlightened that you are suffering?
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SZ isn’t all suffering. You’d first have to grasp what enlightenment is to understand it.
The fastest way to enlightenment is daily prayer, yoga, meditation and Christian spiritual study.
My nurse and I both agree that I have reached self actualization of Maslows hierarchy years ago and have remained there over the years.
I am in utter peace, contentment and tranquility.
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That’s very good! I’m a bit jealous. I hope to be there soon.
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I experienced very severe trauma and physical, mental and sexual abuse from age 1 through age 27. I acquired sza at age 31 when I was hospitalized for suicidal gestures and psychosis. It was revolving door hospitalizations from then on out until 2005 when my depression and suicidality suddenly came to an abrupt halt after my father apologized to me for his incest of me. After that point, the only symptoms I was left with were hypomania, paranoia, thought insertions, ideas of reference, and mild audio, visual and tactile hallucinations. In 2008, I was put on Risperdal Consta. In 2016, I was put on Seroquel along with Geodon and those 3 together got rid of all my positive symptoms. I have MCI so I have cognitive deficits as well that my pdoc told me was the result of years of sz. Almost 38 years, to be exact. I’ll be 61 in February.
Incredible empathy !!! A signpost to Godliness …
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“If you think your enlightened, go home for thanksgiving”-Ram Dass- Im sad to hear what your father did. I was wondering if your able to forgive him. Are you able to be around him without losing it. Did this process of forgivness lead to your enlightenment?