It’s only like that if you allow it. If anything sz made me stronger. I don’t allow it to define who I am, I take control instead of allowing it to control me.
I’ve gotten better. Less paranoia and racing thoughts. It was tiring having a brain that went constantly a hundred miles an hour. I had some intelligence but I was a dope. My paranoia made it impossible to make things like romantic connections.
Yes. I feel dumbed down on the meds but gawd. It’s like chalk and cheese. I much prefer me now. Medicated and content to a large extent.
Schizophrenia has humbled me to some degree. Here i was at the Hospital with my pie-in-the-sky delusions, surrounded by anorexic women and young people who never had a chance.
I’ve become more thoughtful and empathetic because of this affliction.
Oh, I definitely turned worse with this illness… I deal everyday now with anger, irritability, bitterness etc… I was showing it before, now I just hide it, which is a bit of an inside killer too, but I prefer not to show it anymore, yeap… I even once had the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, but I know, that its quite common the degradation of personality too in sz, maybe more in the negative ones too …
You are not alone, don’t feel bad on this, I try too .
Some of the Aps i’ve tried really changed me and I said and did things I really regret.
But sz hasn’t changed me, I was kinda schizoid before and after.