They’ve been in my dreams a lot lately. Tormenting me trying to make me miserable. But I’ve been kicking their asses honestly. Sometimes I’ve even seen them scared cursing at me. I’m a lot stronger now, I think too strong for them. But that one voice I keep thinking is the devil continues to mess with my head. He threatens me. He says he could ruin me in an instant. He could take everyone I loved away. He even paused for a bit and then, I swear I could feel him sneering, said instead he’d just make my boyfriend leave me for another girl. Wouldn’t I love THAT? God says not to be afraid and not to listen to his threats but it just gives me anxiety because if he is the devil whose to say he can’t do those things?
And when I told him “God wouldn’t let you do those things to me” he said, again sneering, “Are you sure? He’s already let me do quite a lot to you.” That one really hurt me.
I hate him so much. It’s not fair I can hear demons. I don’t want to anymore. Most of the time now I can’t but on occasion like now I do. They say that now my mental illness is being treated my energy isn’t as negative so I’m just not on the “same wavelength” as them to hear them as much anymore. But they’re still there and very much want me back in that place of suffering. Want to pull me in and not let go. They really do scare me a lot. But I stand up to them because I’m brave and I’m strong and someone has to do it. Horrible horrible entities I wouldn’t wish interactions with them on anyone.