Struggling to keep up with my job scared im going to have another psychotic break

Im getting really bad depression from losing a job i wanted to do i got it but the guy told me to stay at my old job because of changing rotas becausei wanted to keep my old job for the time being as it was a part time job and other job is part time but they said no and cancelled me. Im not sure what i should do anymore because i hate the job im in and im getting bullied by the maneger she keep saying everyone helps me because they feel sorry for me due to my mental illness im not sure how much longer i can cope tbh.

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I can’t handle the stress of work, and I think too slow now to work so I’m on SSDI. Is that something you’d ever consider?

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Whatever you do, take care of yourself. Be precautious so nothing bad happens.

Sorry you are having a hard time at work. Are you sure you are interpreting things correct? I mean if you didn’t do a decent job they wouldn’t hold on to you. Maybe it’s not as bad as you think. Anyways I hope it works out.

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Im scared now that ill commit suicide because of becoming stressed with work i cant tolerate my boss she bullies me and im tired of being singled out by her because of my mental illness. She cuts my breaks in half too

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They let me go because of the rotas of my current job. Im not sure i can take her anymore

In that case either quit and regroup, or get a medical leave. When one door gets closed, many others open.

It’s not worth it if it makes you suicidal.

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But my mum is saying the doors will shut if i leave and i wont get another job. I dont know what to do anymore

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Maybe try to explain to your mum what you are going through right now and that you need to adress it.

It’ ultimately your choice. But yeah, it can be hard for people like us to get jobs. I’m clinging on to my job, but I like the job and my coworkers.

I’m on partial disability. I don’t know if disability might be a option for you?

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What kind of job is it if I may ask? Sorry to hear its heavy workload

Its working in retail fast food it can be very busy

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Ah yes that can be stressful. Maybe you can get more cleaning duty instead of front facing cashier or something

Problem is we are expected to do it all and they are piling more and more on us

Hmmm can you talk to the manager and tell her the increased workload is stressing you out? Or something to indicate you need a bit of slack

No one would give advice to another to suffer on purpose for an undefined time. All things pass away with time and choice. Every path in life has some varying degree of suffering. Does the money you make equate to some happiness? If so, how can you be suffering and happy at the same time? You’ll never have enough money. The senses are never satisfied. It’s reasonable to fear the future when things are uncertain. If you stay, you suffer. If you go on disability, you suffer. How would it look if they fired someone because they were disabled? Heartless. You have three choices: stay and suffer, quit and go on disability, or find a more accommodating job. Mental health centers have connections to jobs for disabled people. There’s a reason people follow some religion or philosophy in life, to help alleviate their suffering and to find peace. If you can’t find it in yourself to reframe the situation and find joy in your suffering then you have to be pragmatic and take positive steps so your future can be brighter than your past. Doing nothing will only make you more miserable and will break your spirit. A man with a broken spirit is like a child with no positive reinforcement, they don’t believe they’re capable of anything so they resign from life and suffer from options paralysis. I hope your job is not so heartless to the disabled. You know in your heart what you gotta do to have more good days than bad days. Take care of yourself I wish you a good day today.

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Its just realyl braught me down all of this. My perents dont give a hoot my mum just says stay other wise you wont find anothwr job dad is similar this is personal i know but i havent had sex yet and i dotn think ill be able to bond with my partner and i feel like ill die alone i have no future in life because i cant cope with stressful jobs and everything seems stressful

There are schizophrenics on here that work and they work different kinds of jobs that means there are jobs for schizophrenics out there. Don’t get “oneitis” where you believe you can only find work at one place. The proof is there are jobs out there. A janitor job can be freeing and you work at your own pace with independence. As far as your parents being scared you’ll never find work so they would rather see their son suffer is not a loving relationship. You’re not a walking wallet with legs. You’re more than just your money. I mean you’re so miserable because your parents want you to make money plus your job that you can see no way out but suicide. Your parents should want you to be happy and work. Sounds like you got more problems than just your job.

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I went through 5 jobs in 5 months before i found one that worked for me.
I suggest look for another job on your time off to see whats out there

Thats it my mum doesnt care about me she never has

Theres a lot of people who think having a job is a way to balance you out mentally like it gives you some purpose. Thats not true for us. I cant wait until i get back to work part time but right now it gives me anxiety attacks. A job is counter to my mental health and for us we all know stress and anxiety bring about more symptoms. I think its important for us to find balance from (first our medication lol) the small things…a good meal or a good movie. I think those things balance us out not a job. And to those that can work i hope i get to that point i really love the job that im trained in (brazilian jiu jitsu instructor) but im lucky if i get there once a week right now. I used to own my own school with 120 students(and yes i went into psychosis with all of them watching me talk to myself while i was teaching class reflectively super embarrassing but now i think what could i do i was doing the best that i could) now one of my students who is one of my best friends lets me show up short notice when im feeling right to his school. He knows that I want to teach more but he gets that im struggling. Your parents need to try to get what they can never truly understand. I was given the advice on here to go to family counceling and now were all set up to next thursday with my psychologist who worked for 6 years in a schizophrenic psych ward is gonna help us (my parents and i) with our communication struggles. Im lucky that my parents want to go i hope that yours grow up and want to go too.

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Its from being on here that I finally realized that im not alright i had this attitude that schizophrenia didnt touch me i made it through and i handled it all. While my parents are watching me struggle day to day trying to help with advice they have heard from my psychologist and my psychiatrist. I would brush it off im fine while id be raging with anxiety or akathesia or dyskinesia. I also need them to know that advice isnt the solution alot of time i just need them to try to understand. Our doctors dont know what we go through we have in my opinion the most severe mental illness and my doctors are brave enough to say we actually know the least about it next to all the other mental health conditions. So we are the experts. While you guys haha because i got on here and oh â– â– â– â–  i get that experience and that experience i suffer alot too. Now i get to be a part of a community that gets more than what i do.