Yesterday, while biking around the countryside, I got into my psychosis because of physical and emotional stress from traffic. I wasn’t prepared for it when it came on. When I got home, I rested and it went away. I’m 74. I lost all touch with reality.
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Sorry to hear that. Heavy traffic while biking dilates my pupils too. Glad you are feeling better. Any trails available?
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that’s never fun, its why I had to move to the country, all the people in the city freaked me out. but I’m 26, so I cant imagine what it would be like, I mean if someone realized something was wrong they could have mistaken you for al alz patient or worse. one of my groups members has SZ and suffers psychosis and the first time she had an episode at her new condo complex tey thought shed gone crazy with demtentia.
Sounds like you had a lucky escape
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I get that all the time too. My only mode of transportation is a bike so when traffic is hectic i start gettingextremely stressed to the point where i think people kind of want to run me over. Ive almost been run over twice and one time i hit the front brakes so hard at a car that cut me off that i went over my handlebars. Luckily i did this cool somersault thing where all i got were some scrapes but still. Its really hard to bike and be psychotic. My only relief is talking to myself while biking to take away the stress is to talk to myself. It looks weird to other people but it helps me get to where i need to without breaking down in the middle of the street.
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Severe stress is listed as part of my risk history. Whether that means what would be called severe stress for most people, or a level that would be severe for me but not for others, I don’t know. I am aware that many of us with severe mental illness have a lower stress threshold .
I do know that when acutely stressed I become increasingly irrational , more paranoid,verbally struggling to express myself clearly. It is only after the episode of acute stress has passed that I am aware that my behaviour has been odd. When I’m in the middle of it I think I’m being completely coherent and rational. I get quite upset if someone suggests otherwise. There isn’t a great deal of self awareness at that point.
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Went to a basketball game today. THe crowd got really loud and things in my mind were going on about murdering me and worst of all poison in my drink. It even tasted awful after they said it. I stayed though and survived…
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Maybe you need some kind of benzo or something to help you deal with the stress.
I’m going to take to riding around the local roads at odd hours in the early AM. You know, three or four in the morning. It’s really nice then. Nobody is up. Everyone is sleeping. It’s quiet and peaceful then. You can enjoy the night, the moon and the stars. The space is all yours. Even the police are asleep.