My memory started from 17 years old.
The other person inside myself(who has gone) told me that he can represent me, but I cannot represent him. Because of my hunger for independence, he just let me took over.
Our mental power are different. He can see bigger picture, while I always overlook things.
Now I am lost in a foreign city, supposedly it is he who has travelled to here. Now he has gone as a Christian, I am taking over and responsible for him as a whole identity. I am not sure I will be as good as him, because all of the hunger to seek freedom, to seek revenge are here. He warned me before if I will ever be a murderer(what a final relief for me), he will not be responsible for me.
I am so scared of my behavior in the future. And yes, I think the second personality has schizophrenia, but not the first personality. And as a whole identity, I am not sure if I have the following:
[quote]The DSM-5 provides the following criteria to diagnose dissociative identity disorder:
1.Two or more distinct identities or personality states are present, each with its own relatively enduring pattern of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and self.
2.Amnesia must occur, defined as gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events.
3.The person must be distressed by the disorder or have trouble functioning in one or more major life areas because of the disorder.
4.The disturbance is not part of normal cultural or religious practices.
5.The symptoms can not be due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (such as blackouts or chaotic behavior during alcohol intoxication) or a general medical condition (such as complex partial seizures).
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I have a history of dissociation due to trauma…but never any alternate personalities…from what I’ve read that seems to be extremely rare. My dissociation manifested it’s self in forgetting about certain things and blacking out at the mention of a say somebodies name.
Like one day I’d be going on and on about a particular memory I had and then the next day I’d have no recollection of this. Or it was discovered that when asked a particular question which included a particular name I would black out and not hear what was said at all. It was as if no time had even passed but what I did notice was the expressions of people’s faces when I came to a second later.
From what you are telling me, it does sound like you have better possiblity than me of having dissociation. I have never experience black out or forgetfulness…
Are you okay this day? How did you cure yourself?
yes i’m okay now…I didn’t really do anything to cure myself…I guess I just feel like I needed to reintegrate all these memories…real and imagined…and with time I was able to begin to heal.
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I think forgiveness to the trauma especially the particular person wno irritated you can of course, unite the split personality again. (the second personality)He was out there to seek revenge.
I don’t know much about DID. Have you had experiences of amnesia or black outs where the other identity took over and you were unaware?
Whether its DID or ‘voices’. You are good enough as both personalities are you. Have faith in you.
Thank you for that. I didn’t have amnesia or black outs, so I think it is the inner voice.
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I’m just amazed at how in depth these discussions get. This is my first week on the forum and I will admit that I have had blackouts and lost time. Yet this hasn’t happened for years, I really hope that you keep trucking Plumber. As for my blackouts, I’m just happy I don’t experience them anymore.
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