1 Year ago is when it all started. I thought I was able to communicate telepathically with my coworkers but that only happened at work.
About 6 months later things started to change. I had this firm belief that people were watching me. Even my family and relatives and that I was able to communicate with them telepathically even have conversations.
The delusion that I was experiencing had different characters and different sects.
8 months later and to this day I still feel that people are watching me, can read my thoughts and emotions and communicate telepathically with me. Iâve been told by frequently by family and relatives that this is not true but it seems to me that every time I observe a personâs reaction and body language it shows that they were reading my thoughts.
I know most will say that itâs false beliefs but to me itâs a reality. Itâs hindered my life greatly in every aspect. Am I experiencing something supernatural it or is it just my own delusional thinking?
Let them watch. Let them listen. After awhile theyâll go on hiatus until you can come up with more tangible scripts for themâŠjust donât be askinâ for a slice of the pie, they can be quite stingy.
You are delusional. I have a similar delusion. I also feel like I am being watched everywhere I go and that people are putting thoughts into my subconscious to control me. I have to not give a shyt that I am being watched and there isnât much I can do about mind control so I have to try not to think about it. I KNOW how frustrating it is to have a delusion, know itâs a delusion but still believe it. Take your meds and try to put it to the back of your mind until the day it goes away. OR maybe adjust your meds.
just work on putting those thoughts out of your mind
If you ever stretch the truth, or tell a white lie about something
you yourself will get paranoid they will find out that you are not being totally honest
you can actually force people to react that way
Iâm not sure how this happens
telepathy could be real just because weâre schizophrenics
What you have are classic symptoms of schizophrenia. Textbook symptoms. Your friends and family are absolutely correct.
Definition of delusion
psychology : a persistent false psychotic belief regarding the self or persons or objects outside the self that is maintained despite indisputable evidence to the contrary.
I struggle with this, too. I feel that people can hear what I am thinking and I often get confirmations by them laughing or looking at me or whatever. It can be difficult, for sure.
But when I had these symptoms, and subsequently, I felt that to a small extent there might have been something in it. We all read people, and we are all read. Perhaps when psychotic we get a little better at doing it. I guess that the sort of thoughts that I felt I was reading were those to which their thinkers would not wish to own up to so it would be very difficult to check. For example it seemed to me that âI want to have his babyâ was sort of written all over my friendâs girlfriendâs face, or rather like she was bellowing it out like a cow. But if I had asked her, âIs your romantic interest in my friend largely a factor of your desire to drop one?â she would have said âno.â Still, in Okinawa where traditionally schizophrenics were employed as Yuta who would give advice, this was perhaps partly because the ability to read peopleâs thoughts is not 100% illusory.
I feel people can read my thoughts too. They blame me for saying or thinking things and get upset at me then call me names. Itâs sad that people i admire do this and it hurts my feelings. Hope we all can get peace and privacy.
I donât know, and they may be right. But, I seem to remember one teacher claiming that schizophrenia was partly unfocussed attention, like attending to everything. Perhaps thoughts always transcribe but most of the time we focus on what people say, the main message, and ignore all the other messages.
A further possibility bearing in mind me feeling that my friendâs girlfriend was a cow and pansdisease that his neighbor was a rat (and it seems to me I had other similar animalistic interpretations of others) that, maybe instead of putting thoughts into spoken language (which schizophrenia makes people mistrust), thoughts are made available, transcribed, into that which Levi-Strauss calls âSavage Thoughtâ or thinking in things, animals, totems.
So like how blind people gain improved senses of hearing, or feeling the proximity of objects by their temperature, a break down of language faculty, may improve other symbolization systems.
Today over breakfast I looked at the faces of my family and tried to feel what animal they were and I failed completely. I have become verbose and lost touch.
Imagine that a 4 dimensional reality exists. But wait, the physicists of today say that a 4D actually reality does exist, a Space-Time reality. It is composed of 3 dimensions of space, and 1 dimension of time. But we do not extend across time.
We are always confined to just the present time. Thus here we are, positioned within this 4D reality, but confined to only the present time. Thus we are on the inside. The outside is huge and it extends across all time other than the present time.
So the minds on the outside extend across time , and thus are enormous compared to mere human minds.
Just imagine how these huge minds may toy with mere human minds.
Just a thought, a thought that is to be instantly rejected, just as instructed by the mighty boss outside minds.
Of you were inside my house on that Thursday just anout sunset when the lights started shining into the windows and beings were peering in silently through the blinds, youâd know why I hid were I did for hours.
Should have been a hallucination, and still hoping it wasnât real.
The grand finale was when they were leaving the house, unsuccessful at finding me. I heard what sounded like someone swinging an extention cord around very hard and fast.
Then I heard items being turned over, bags of papers dumped out on the floor, containers avalanching under the strain pf god knows whatâŠthe thought of them destroying my favorite things in my personal room was too much.
I jumped off my 5foot safe, stiff from sitting Indian style, I stumbled into my unlocked room, only to find nothing out of place, and all the folks that were there just a minute ago- had vanished.
Time travelers? Whatever they were, have frequented in and around every room in my house, usually when they thought I was sleeping.
They appear to have a human body, but they have reached into that 5 foot safe of mine and removed things in plain sight.
No boundaries it seems can keep them out.
They travel right into the house with the doors closed, and they allow no ânormalâ sound ie, squeeky screen door, but will leave the main door physically open ( when I was just around the immediate corner hiding).
Iâm stupid about this kind of stuff, and have a little idea why my house, but this is definately a different level than I know for what is supposed to be our physical reality.
In time, the truth comes out and it will be known whatever this is, I just hope I live long enough to find out.
