I cant even go out in public I am sorry I wanted to not be ignored now I’m stared upon like some kind of freak don’t want to live this way. I want to live my life in peace from this the staring and the judgement is getting to me I am angry all the time now. irritable annoyed frustrated with people and everyone right now better just stay away from me I am liable to snap at any moment. I just want to be left alone is that too much to ask? I am ugly not pretty don’t look good there are prettier people out there why is this happening to me with the staring I feel like such a freak of nature or freak in a side show circus only people pay to see though. I wish people would leave me alone and let me live my life like I said in Peace I can’t even have any Peace of mind or Peace in my Spirit. I am angry Like I said, and I stay angry about to cry right now I’m so angry when I cry no one cares to see they think it’s funny.
when I am in pain people in general do its their entertainment I believe, and I rant on here to get feelings off my chest and still I am the bad guy for feeling this way no one understands me no one gets me either I belong in the graveyard dead as dead can be. And yes, my Nurse Practitioner is supposed to get back with me and hasn’t yet on what to do about my depression I dont trust what anyone tells me they. lie can’t even trust my Psych Nurse so done with everyone and everything po.
I think my first psychosis started in part because I had a bad self image and low confidence. It’s not a nice place to be at.
You have to stop making comparisons. Nobody needs to look like a model or whatever to have a good life. We do the best we can with what we got. Nobody is perfect, and those who think they are technically has a mental disorder.
I wouldn’t quit your contact with your medical team. They are there to help you. Having a condition like ours we need to keep in close contact with them.
I hope you feel better soon. Life is hard sometimes, but you are not alone.
thanks for your encouragement
I’ve been debating on how to reply to this.
I think, at the core,you need to learn to like yourself. That’s hard to do. Once you are at that point you will care less about the perceptipn of others about you
Additionally, you may be feeling like people are looking at you when they aren’t. Most people shift their gaze around the area and end up glancing at everyone around them.
People are far more concerned about how they are presenting to be worried about others most of the time.
You dont look ugly, you look like a typical middle aged woman.
Don’t overreact to the staring, just act yourself like i do and live on.
I get bullied by my neighbour since he moved there because of some weird behaviour i have, I also get bullied by mediocretins places outside.
Your paranoia is your psychosis, talk to your doctor, he should fix your medication.
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