Standing at the edge of darkness

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Standing at the edge I see a great nothingness. Pure Blackness. Looking up I can almost see a light, but it’s so far up it’s out of reach. In front of me, nothing but blackness. All that I had is behind me, and that’s not much; with nothing ahead of me. Would it be so bad just to step into the hole that lies before me? The nagging negative voices in my head telling me…jump, jump, JUMP! Do I listen? Is it just part of my past yelling at me?

With the nothingness staring back at me, I wonder can create more path? How did the stuff in behind me get there? Where did it come from? Is there more stuff ahead of me that I just can’t see? Should I take that step into the darkness? Should I trust myself that it will be okay if I keep pushing on or do I let the blackness engulf me?

I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed with depression tonight, don’t know exactly what brought this on. I guess the constants of the voices pushing on me is getting the better of me this evening. Writing helps get sort it out. Hearing support from others helps me get through it. I know I’ve said this before but…I just want quietness. Is that so much to ask?

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Hi,sohare,your a nice girl…trust yourself that you will make it and overcome the darkness to the light,it’s not easy,it might be slow,in the end everyone including you will reach the light

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Don’t listen to the voices, Sohare! Remember, you can get through this. Try to find some way to divert yourself. If writing helps you handle the pain, do that. It’s okay to want quietness, but don’t try to stay there all the time. Your life needs balance.

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in buddhism there is a place called ’ the sphere of nothingness '…
basically a marker on the road of enlightenment.
never be afraid to step into the metaphysical darkness, for their will be a loving hand that will catch you.
know someone cares :heart:
maybe a walk in nature will ground you. :deciduous_tree: :bird:
take care :alien:
p.s if you are feeling sad at all please ring a helpline, they have helped me :sunny:

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I’m doing okay today, just wanted to update everyone. Kitty’s been awfully lovey-dovey with me the past couple days, I think she sensed something was off with me.

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cats :cat: and dogs :dog: are the best friends…
glad you are feeling better :sunny:
take care :alien: